The big decision

Well, that's what they have been saying during the orientation this morning. It's the biggest decision we've made so far. And I think I'm considering as one of my biggest decision as well. IT INVOLVES THREE YEARS OF STUDY STUDY STUDY AND TWO MORE YEARS OF WORK WORK WORK.

Lord, please make this work. Let me stay here. HAHA In some weird way, even if I want to stay in a place where the luxurious lives, I really want to be away from the comfort zone to learn some more.

AND PLEASE LET THEM LET ME GO.
ASAP. 8|

Because I do have a DEADline to me. T___T

So far, it has been good. I've met some people. I'm not planning to do any damage. And I plan to work HARD. Oh, and let's not forget the part where I wish I get to know everyone else, and by that I mean more than a 100 people. HAHAHA

As they say: Use your resources wisely. AND study harder. :P

Another day tomorrow :)

Karma chameleon

Karma has its own way of kicking your butt and saying "Girl/Boy, you're an asshole". HAHAHA

Might make a photo dump of yesterday's Hi5 watching in Greenbelt. :D

You're so last summer

It's weird, I just noticed now. My last Polyvore entry and this Polyvore entry both have flowers. So much so for filling the page.

You're so last summer by icajec featuring GAP Shorts

And I'm currently having a tummy ache, so I guess it's much better that I haven't gone out yet. I wonder where I got this I've only had cereal before I got this tummy ache. :s It does suck a bit, plus the fact that I can't go swimming til a few more days. T___T Summer is a complete bummer for me. And I'm really hoping that I'd have an 8-5 schedule by June. Else, it's OSY for me.

I guess sometimes, I just need to learn how to choose my friends well. For some reason, I don't get the point of seeing someone fail at something.

My thoughts are so unorganized. Anyway, I thought of doing an extended Polyvore here. Cos I've been to lazy to put a description on my Polyvore account. So I'll do it here instead. Ok, here here:

1. I got the Ted Lapidus french vanilla gold oversized 70's glasses cos it looks so vintage, and I think it goes well with the outfit. The colors not that loud or anything. And because I best think square glasses fit me well.
2. Then the white/blue WeSC Oboe headphones, though they don't really match my black iPod, I think they be too useful during the summer.
   
3. OMG. I didn't really so much that these Gap Bermuda's were from the kid's section. Anyway, I'm into Bermuda's right now. Since it's summer and because they make my legs look the longest. HAHA And because it's too comfortable to be in Bermuda's. ;)
4. No reason behind the Topshop shirt. I just love their fabric.
   
5. Er.. A 30" Silver Lunaria Dollar. HAHA
6. I just love so much stuffs from Eruca, and that's basically it.
   
7. Please refer to #6.
   
8. I was thinking of Lady Gaga when I chose this Poker Necklace by Kim & Maki. HAHA
   
9. The Vintage ring did the job of filling up the empty space between Ted Lapidus & the Oboe.
10. H&M rocks for simplicity.
    
11. Like #7, you could refer to #10.
12. A summer essential. Fine it's heavy, but what can I really do. Photoholics. O_O
13. Wanting. HAHA Too bad they don't have the Jack Black Diana F+ anymore. I want that so much more.
14. Another summer essential. Well, more of night essentials. For my owl mode. My iFish + 21/Dashboard Confessional rocks me to sleep.
    

PS. I need to get myself checked. I forget things quite too easily.

Pathetic Loser

Before anything else, here's my fair share of Polyvore-ying madness before I slept last night.

Sometimes, I think fashion is for me. OK, scratch that, shopping is for me. HAHA

Plain Jane by icajec featuring Miu Miu Accessories

Just a little something about the title (of the blog). I just couldn't believe that I'm related to such a loser who screams how much her stuffs are. A little less easier to comprehend: She bought something, and shouted to the whole world how much it costs. AND I bet its not that pretty. HAHA Cos she doesn't have a taste in buying stuffs. Her brother/sister does. NUFF SAID. :D

PS. Or maybe I just hate buying that's too exp. Cos I prefer receiving them instead. HAHA HOORAY for thriftiness. :D
PPS. People should stop watching my stuffs on eBay and start buying them. C'mon, girl needs moolah :D

Who knew there's a connection between love and video games?

"There will always be someone bigger and more powerful than who we are
and we need to be consciously aware of the existential inevitability that

we will eventually die, even if the hero saves the girl and kill the bad guy."

NUNINU

Summer is getting boring as the days progress.

I absolutely love eruca.jp

NUNINU by icajec featuring Sass & Bide dresses

I wonder when we'll tell daddy that we got him a plane ticket to Singapore too. HAHA

OH WELL. For now, our hearts would skip a beat every single time he asks about our trip. HAHAHA

Broken strings

Broken by =ArmyBrat1521 on deviantART

"Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything"

Some things are better left unsaid, some questions are best when remain unanswered.

... You're not in any way helping.
You should've known better.
You could've done something far more different.

Can I have my antidote back?

Trying not to be a hardball.

Because at some point, I realized that you are right. That I shouldn't really be a hard ball. Although, a huge part of me still wants to remain this way. But, as I've told you, a part of me is missing something.

I hope I'd be able to remove the slacker within me. I need to work, work, work. X_X

Love lifts us up where we belong by icajec featuring Jimmy Choo sandals

A change & a comeback

GAH! It's 3AM and I need to wake up at 6AM, so I can accompany my sister's early morning shopping spree.

Since I'm trying to do a comeback. Here's something for a change. I don't think I care much about fashion now as much as I did almost 3 years ago. Or maybe I'm still the same girl who doesn't really care much about the labels.

You're annoyingly eating up the spaces left in my brain. I thought I got rid of you already.

Thinking of you all afternoon. by icajec featuring Steven Alan blouses

state the obvious

& the truth is... I LOVE. :)

happy being happy

"There I was an empty piece of a shell
Just minding my own world
Without even knowing
What love and life were all about

Then you came, you brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me
And before I knew it
There I was so in love with you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feeling
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I'm gone beyond existing
And it all begun, when I met you."

- APO Hiking Society, When I Met You

Isn't this so mushy? :) There are just things that when you think about it, it feels great already. What more if it happens, right?

un triste

A sad one for that matter.

Random stuffs.

Movies.

10 Things I Hate About You

Music.

Dashboard Confessionals - As Lovers Go
Letters to Cleo - I Want You to Want Me
Lit - Completely Miserable
Adam Sandler - Grow Old With You

Questions.

Why?

Phrase.

Close enough is realizing that you are falling in love, but still you won't do anything about it. Primarily because there are too much to risk, and you don't want to take that risk cos neither are sure about where things will end up. Although you still want to keep whatever things that you have right now even if it's all messed up and crazy, cos it feels great. There's just no string attached, sometimes it's better that way. Eventually you'll hate the term commitment for what it does - it just either take everything away, or leave you with a happy ending. Good if it's the latter, and if it's not, expect the worst.

it's gonna happen, I'm sure

Not a 100% sure, but it's gonna happen. Things WILL change, in a good way or in a bad way, I don't know. All I know is that there COULD be major changes. I don't know who screwed up, I don't know how its gonna happen. It's just gonna be something spontaneous, this is worse than thinking about my preliminary exams.

I hate frowning, but this time I think it's becoming a normal thing for me. Can life be any worse than this? Let's just hope that it wouldn't. Cos if I couldn't take this anymore - that its causing me to rant & frown ALOT - what more if it's worse than this?

CAM WAR

Definitely one of my best days in school. :)

Me, Jeic & Berna had a CAM WAR. HAHAHA We were basically using 3 cam phones (Moto L6 & v3i, & O2 XDA II Mini) plus a digi cam (Canon PShot a400). We took ALOT of pics, from Frio back to the guidance office. Sneak peek: it's about 9mb of photos, & not all were posted. We had kami pics, brokeback pics, stolen shots & group pics. HAHAHA It was so fun. ;)

Do it again, do it again. :D

I loves it! ;)

PS.

Me & Berna continued the cam war after school, at this dinner birthday party of one of our relatives. We were joined by our 2 aunts. Although this time, there were 2 phones & 2 digi cams. & less pics. HAHA Still.. It reached 5mb.

Tiring day, but it was worth it. Cos I had lots of fun. :D

It can't be

But if you are, then I'll say "sure". :D

But if you're not, then better. :)

"All I want is somebody who cares." :)

Everything...

I don't know what's going on, why everything is going this way & not that way. Some things suck, while some don't. It's really a bitch... I mean, why can't everything just be good? Have I had enough of my good times? Did I not cherish those moments? If this is a part of growing up, then let's all be immature & be happy. I miss old times, when everything seemed so perfect.

Again, I found something meaningful but how come other things that matter doesn't seem to go well? Do good things really go with something bad? It just sucks :(

I'm happy now, but then some things make me sad too. A lot of things actually. & it's not ordinary sadness, it's close to an extreme cos somethings are at risk & those things matter.

Recently, when I'm lonely... there's just no one to run to. Someone who I can talk to about anything and everything without feeling a little weird. I miss having someone to wake up right in the middle of the night, & just rant to. & eventually that person could make me laugh, smile or something. I miss having someone close. :(

This sucks big time..

Change, I know it's something constant but I don't think I have it right now. Everything seems to be like steadily sad or screwed up. I miss change, that is if change's going to do me better.

Darn. I sound shitty like a 5 year old begging for a bar of chocolate. Although, this is different. I'm a 17 year old neurotic, craving for attention & love.

Will you brighten up my day?

With just one simple phrase, you did. Although... I still wanna know if its true or not, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Cos I know you do. There's just no reason why you would state that knowing that other people listen, if it doesn't mean anything.

& I guess that it's alright that the first person I expected to respond didn't, cos one of the best friends that I got did. Labelling you as one of the best people that I've meet so far, is kind off like a great deal. Choosing you as my friend took some time, & to actually give someone time to know that person means that you already are important.

To you who cheered me up, THANKS! I don't care if it's true or not, cos I know - IT IS. :)

WHAT A DAY!?

I think I only got 1 or 2 shots for Korfball. But Patrick & Adrian were awesome. ;)

I got dressed up in Fe's bathroom, which was so dark & scary cos it's a hospital. DAMNIT. I really hope she gets well soon though, she looks AWFUL. :(

I got to my Socio class pretty late. I wasn't marked absent though, but I left all my stuffs in the guidance - fortunately the lesson for the day's going to be uploaded.

& again, I left my waiver for tomorrow's play at home. So I had to go to the Institute of Religion during Chem Lec class to get myself a waiver or else they "wouldn't" let me in the cinema to watch the play tomorrow.

There were a couple of times when I got totally hungry & there was no one to eat with. So it sucked so bad. Then when I had someone to eat with, I was already too tired to eat.

English class was really a bum. My prof is SOOO gay, & I mean that literally.

All the people I've texted before Chem Lab class starts didn't reply.

Chem Lab SUCKS big time. I was totally hungry when I got in, but too tired to even eat & bummed cos I had no one to go with. The electric fan that I use/own is broken. When I got out to sit beside the plants, the cement was effing HOT - turned out alright cos it was kinda windy outside.

When I attended Chem Lab class, I didn't expect that we'd be doing an experiment. But we did,
& I didn't have a lab gown. So instead, I had Bong & Billy look out for me & hung out with Topher around the vicinity.

My prof marked me absent on Chem Lab class, which I eventually approached him so he would erase it. Well, he did. Good, or else. HAHAHA Or else, he'll totally bitch me out.

I feel completely obese. :( but I'm hungry. & I'm still trying to get a hold of my appetite.

My phone's bluetooth icon's not appearing on the today screen.

I'm still LSS: No Doubt - Underneath It All.

& lastly, the first person I totally miss being buddies with is hooked. I don't wanna mess up with him, but I kinda miss the guy. & I won't do anything about it.

Why can't I just go out & take pictures of anything & everything beautiful? Why can't I just call someone & feel free to tell him/her everything that seems so interesting? I wanna be who I wanna be. I miss being out, just hanging out... talking to the few people who still want me to be there & not to someone who would question my existence.

Typhoon Glenda

This typhoon's leaving alot of families homeless. Well, I'm just assuming since I haven't been watching the news lately. If this is the case, we shouldn't really be rejoicing.

I'm trying to keep myself away from plates, spoons or forks.. Or anything sweet for that matter. I've been gaining weight since these because-there's-a-typhoon-so-there's-no-classes days.

I'm still in need of a buddy. It's so weird that I couldn't easily open up to someone new anymore. So I guess I can't really go steady cos it's screwing up my life. HAHA But I guess it still depends. I should catch up with more people, like my old buddy? Who appparently, doesn't know me that much anymore.

now I KNOW

...how I choose the people I get close with, stick with and tell everything. It seems like I choose people who have big hearts, who I know will be there when I need him or her, who'll know when I'm not in a good mood, who keeps me pampered & of course, those who are willing to be my buddies & love me back.

I saw my friends profile, & saw one of his buddy's profile as well. & I've learned that he's one of those rare people who have big hearts - those who doesn't choose their friends based on their physique. It's just so COOL. HAHAHA I find it sweet. (:

School's really stressing me out lately, it kinda sucks. But again, it isn't bad as it used to be. :)

I finally got my Korfball uniform. The jersey looked kinda nice, but then the skort - skirt & short - kinda sucked. So I guess I'm still wearing jogging pants going to school, & changing right before I go to PE class.

....Prelims' coming up. I don't know if I'm excited or something. HAHA I'm so messed up.

I either have to write about something that I don't know what, or photoshop something. Really, I am messed up.

I wanna watch 'Hitch'. There's just A LOT to learn.