WHAT A DAY!?

I think I only got 1 or 2 shots for Korfball. But Patrick & Adrian were awesome. ;)

I got dressed up in Fe's bathroom, which was so dark & scary cos it's a hospital. DAMNIT. I really hope she gets well soon though, she looks AWFUL. :(

I got to my Socio class pretty late. I wasn't marked absent though, but I left all my stuffs in the guidance - fortunately the lesson for the day's going to be uploaded.

& again, I left my waiver for tomorrow's play at home. So I had to go to the Institute of Religion during Chem Lec class to get myself a waiver or else they "wouldn't" let me in the cinema to watch the play tomorrow.

There were a couple of times when I got totally hungry & there was no one to eat with. So it sucked so bad. Then when I had someone to eat with, I was already too tired to eat.

English class was really a bum. My prof is SOOO gay, & I mean that literally.

All the people I've texted before Chem Lab class starts didn't reply.

Chem Lab SUCKS big time. I was totally hungry when I got in, but too tired to even eat & bummed cos I had no one to go with. The electric fan that I use/own is broken. When I got out to sit beside the plants, the cement was effing HOT - turned out alright cos it was kinda windy outside.

When I attended Chem Lab class, I didn't expect that we'd be doing an experiment. But we did,
& I didn't have a lab gown. So instead, I had Bong & Billy look out for me & hung out with Topher around the vicinity.

My prof marked me absent on Chem Lab class, which I eventually approached him so he would erase it. Well, he did. Good, or else. HAHAHA Or else, he'll totally bitch me out.

I feel completely obese. :( but I'm hungry. & I'm still trying to get a hold of my appetite.

My phone's bluetooth icon's not appearing on the today screen.

I'm still LSS: No Doubt - Underneath It All.

& lastly, the first person I totally miss being buddies with is hooked. I don't wanna mess up with him, but I kinda miss the guy. & I won't do anything about it.

Why can't I just go out & take pictures of anything & everything beautiful? Why can't I just call someone & feel free to tell him/her everything that seems so interesting? I wanna be who I wanna be. I miss being out, just hanging out... talking to the few people who still want me to be there & not to someone who would question my existence.

Typhoon Glenda

This typhoon's leaving alot of families homeless. Well, I'm just assuming since I haven't been watching the news lately. If this is the case, we shouldn't really be rejoicing.

I'm trying to keep myself away from plates, spoons or forks.. Or anything sweet for that matter. I've been gaining weight since these because-there's-a-typhoon-so-there's-no-classes days.

I'm still in need of a buddy. It's so weird that I couldn't easily open up to someone new anymore. So I guess I can't really go steady cos it's screwing up my life. HAHA But I guess it still depends. I should catch up with more people, like my old buddy? Who appparently, doesn't know me that much anymore.

now I KNOW

...how I choose the people I get close with, stick with and tell everything. It seems like I choose people who have big hearts, who I know will be there when I need him or her, who'll know when I'm not in a good mood, who keeps me pampered & of course, those who are willing to be my buddies & love me back.

I saw my friends profile, & saw one of his buddy's profile as well. & I've learned that he's one of those rare people who have big hearts - those who doesn't choose their friends based on their physique. It's just so COOL. HAHAHA I find it sweet. (:

School's really stressing me out lately, it kinda sucks. But again, it isn't bad as it used to be. :)

I finally got my Korfball uniform. The jersey looked kinda nice, but then the skort - skirt & short - kinda sucked. So I guess I'm still wearing jogging pants going to school, & changing right before I go to PE class.

....Prelims' coming up. I don't know if I'm excited or something. HAHA I'm so messed up.

I either have to write about something that I don't know what, or photoshop something. Really, I am messed up.

I wanna watch 'Hitch'. There's just A LOT to learn.

to sleep or not to sleep, THAT is the question

Sleeping late in the afternoon, & waking up in the middle of the night SUCKS SO BAD. It's been bringing me sleepless nights. Like yesterday, I slept like 430 in the morning & woke up around 530. That's not so decent. Well, yea, now I complain about it after doing it. My eyes turned out so poofy & I can barely move a muscle.

& this afternoon, I slept again & woke up about 8 in the evening. Although right now, my system's dictating me to catch up with my sleep. I really want to, but then I can't leave my laptop charging overnight - it'll screw up the battery.

O yea, & I've not eating so much - starving myself, & filling myself up with biscuits. I feel totally fat & broke. HAHA

Tomorrow's Tomasino Walk, I really wish that they'd suspend the classes from 3 onwards. It sucks. This isn't my week, I'm so not in the mood to attend any of my classes - but I still did. I'm so stressed, tired.... What else? It just sucks.

I miss travelling. On the road or by plane, it doesn't matter. I just wanna see something new again, & capture it with my lens.

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1. Cigarette: pan de sal HAHAHA
2. Sex: can lead to something.
3. Relationship: it can be good or bad.
4. Your Last Out of town: :)
5. Power rangers: I used to watch this when I was a kid.
6. Marijuana: brownies.
7. Crack: is a 5 letter word.
8. Food: chocolate cake from Mezze :)
9. Love: can also cause sadness.
10. War: Troy.
11. Car: Mitsu Eclipse <3
12. Gas Prices: are killing me
13. Halloween: Trick or Treat. ;)
14. Bon Jovi: Oh, Bon, I remember when we were hanging out way way back.. HAHAHA
15. Religion: I believe I'm agnostic
16. MySpace: if there's a space in-between those two words could me a lot more.
17. Worst fear: not having cash. HAHAHA
18. Marriage: maybe, maybe not.
19. Fashion: I just remembered, I have to do some shopping.
20. Brunettes: lovely.
21: Redheads: hm...
22: Work: second thing to allowance, in terms of getting money.
23: Past time: browsing..
24: Football: Italy.
25: One night stands: not my thing.
26: Pet Peeve: when people are expected to reply, & doesn't
27. Pixie Stix: are the cheapest ever.
28. Vanilla Ice Cream: vanilla smlls nice.
29: Porta Potties: so unhygienic.
30: High school: musical, one of the best movies I've seen. 4c rocks (:
31: Pajamas: Silk.
32. Wood: stock.
33. Surfers: yummy. (:
34. Pictures: live it, love it - Hong Kong.
35. First Love: puppy love.

Mezze, Greenbelt

I touched my nose pimple, so now it's a scar. :(

We - sister & husband & my nephew - attended a late dinner birthday party in Mezze. The food was really great. It didn't look great because everything seemed so dry, but it was AWESOME. I even wanted to go for a second round, but I was too shy to.

My nephew, mind you he's 2.5 years old, loves the party scene. The sounds, the people - Oh well, you really gotta love it. ;)

I'm still thinking of what to do for my birthday. I'm kinda... SO excited.

NO SCHOOL

Somehow it sucked, but it doesn't really. It sucked cos that'll only mean that on Friday, we'll be having 2 quizzes - both Chemistry. But somehow it'll be easier to study cos it will, more or less, cover the same topic. Plus, it sucked cos I woke up around 5, and by 8am, I'm done preparing myself. But its good that there's no school today, I didn't go to school anymore cos my class starts at 1 & classes were suspended by 11. Pretty tiring day though.

Oh well... Better enjoy the day. It's a pretty lovely day. The weather's GREAT - cold and comfy. But it's making me fat, all I have done is eat and sleep.

I think I'm a jinx cos whenever I study, the quiz gets cancelled. But still, I'm gonna study. I need to pass. ;)

Study, study, study... I'm so sleepy. HAHA

..I need a buddy.

socio is stressing me

Why would she care about the suicide statistics in the Philippines? It's just so hard to find, even on the net. Or I'm just not using the proper keywords for it. Oh well, whatever it is, I'm just so tired - stressed out today.

lovely weather

It's raining, it's cold & I'm totally lovin' it. :)

It's a day where you can dress up anyway you want, wear jackets and all that comfortable thick clothing. It's just awesome. ;)

But then again... I'm bored... There's no one to talk to... :( Crap... It's giving me that feeling again... What's that feeling? Only some can tell. :s

This isn't good.

get me some

& this is what its all about. This is what I've been talking about for the longest time.

CRAVINGS.

Right at this very moment, while I have a big amount of hate on my head, I am craving. Craving for dried mangoes. SHIT.

Random favourites, random stuffs, random days.

Someone.... please.... bring me some tomorrow. Or accompany me to somewhere I can get some. (: Effort is totally appreciated.

what's wrong?!

I was right in the middle of my online NSTP quiz when the stupid UST server bitched me out. And now I'm feeling worse than ever. It suck ass.

This day sucks. Although I was kinda alright this morning compared to yesterday. Yesterday was a total bitch. I was SO NOT in the mood to do anything - attend class, listen, talk - I still did though. But still, the feeling of not wanting to do anything is like a bitch.

ARGH.

End of the week is near. Thank God?

I'm still not secure about anything. But I'm quite comfortable. I can still breathe I guess. This won't last long - & let's hope that this isn't true.

it resembles Sheryl Crow's song

The First Cut Is The Deepest.

My 2.5 year old nephew met an accident today. I wasn't there to stand as witness though, so all I could state are the stuffs that I've been told. It goes a little something like this...

My nephew's dad is going to prepare for work. So my dad asked my mother to ask my nephew's dad what time he'd be leaving. Then the next thing my dad knew is that one of our household help was knocking at my dad's door, telling him that my nephew was downstairs BLEEDING. For crying out loud, what an irresponsible person is the one who's watching him. A rule for everyone who has a kid at their home, especially the ones who can't talk yet, NEVER TAKE YOUR EYES OFF THEM. It would be the most stupid thing one could ever do. Well, next to that is taking the responsibility to watch them, and you don't. Carelessness can cause one big accident. And this time it did, a HUGE one in fact. My mom took over the responsibility of watching my nephew because my dad was resting. Hard headed, my mom is. She took little cute nephew out of his room, brought him out to the garage under the scrouching heat of the sun and make him run around. One thing led to another, his arm got caught on the scooter's plate holder. And the rest is a DISASTER.

Crappy, it is. My nephew has an almost 4" cut on his left arm. Thank GOD it didn't hit his veins. He still cries whenever the pain is extreme. I mean, who wouldn't? I passed out on a tiny cut on my finger, and almost did again at the site of blood.

This day turned out to be a bitch. With that cut, that DEEP cut, I couldn't forgive her - EVER. I have so much hate for her. And she doesn't deserve any respect, cos she hasn't been acting how she should - since day 1.

tempura & shoes

Well school doesn't stress me as much as it used to, cos I get to hang out with new people now. Only they're my sister's buddies first, so there's still this awkward thing that I get - but hopefully, sometime soon I'd get used to it. School still gets me tired, & because of that I still don't study as much. Longer hours in school, & sometimes I have to baby sit. It's all good though, no one's really complaining. ;)

I bumped into a couple of high school buddies when I was loittering around Theatre Mall this morning. First, on my wait to get my sleepy self a hot choco, I bumped into one of my high school best buddies. So I cancelled my hot choco, which turned out to be I wasn't so interested in. Instead I walked with her to buy a pair of shoe and a bag. & eventuallly ate brunch together at Dozo. I wish I could bump into her more. For one, I totally miss high school. & I miss hanging out with my best buddies.

While we were having brunch, we bumped into another high school personality. He looked awfully thin now - considering when we were just starting high school, he was extremely obese.

Times have changed. People seemed to be so busy right now. But then, we all have our different circles. & now, I'm glad I do. I'm starting to be normal again. Well, slowly evolving. :) Not so social, but getting back on the track probably.

who's got inspiration?

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love. "

- Rose Walker, Sandman #65

"We were never lovers, and we never will be, now. I do not regret that, however. I regret the conversations we never had, the time we did not spend together. I regret that I never told him that he made me happy, when I was in his company. The world was the better for his being in it. These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid. And he is gone, and I am old. "

- Lady Bast, Sandman #72

"At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one."

- Peyton, One Tree Hill

My head is totally blank. Nothing to say. Nothing to work with. No one to talk to. There's completely nothing in me. Blank. Tired. So incomplete. I need some... thing? one? I don't know... All I know is that I need it to fill me up.