it's official...

I am a non-professional driver, with restriction 2 only. :(

I'm so dog tired. I slept at 4a, after havin a little arguement with Ralph. Sister woke me up at 645a, because stupid alarm clock didn't activate. Prepared myself, & by 8a I was ready to go. Left home, arrived at the LTO around 9a. Did a whole bunch of stuffs, & after 6 dreadful hours... I have my license, & my prettiest one. ;) I looked totally cheerful. HAHAHA

After LTO, we headed to Binondo to drop off something. Then we had snack at some old chinese restaurant, kikiam & hot choco - not a good combination, i know. Then we headed home.

Spent a little time at home, then we took off. Mall. :D Every girl loves the mall. :) Went around for 3 or more hours, with completely no agenda. Then home. Dog tired. My legs are starting to kill me. Plus I'm so sleepy I have to get to bed early, I'm starting again early tomorrow - baby sitting.

I saw 2 adorable guys at the LTO. HAHAHA But it was no places for meeting people. The place is so hot that it won't really make you smile when they take your picture - that explains all those grumpy faces in the license of majority of our population.

I'm excited for Friday. :) Our agenda: Mondragon & Glorietta. Shop til I drop, or my wallet empties.

non pro license

I'm getting my exam for my non-pro driver's license tomorrow. My driving future is actually based on this one, cos if I do flunk this I won't really be able to drive this school year. And this school year, we might be actually driving ourselves to school already. :) Which is actually a good thing for far too many reasons.

Anyways, I was talking to Jed and our conversation eventually led to my P. Noval incident - which if you wanna know the story, feel free to approach me and be confused whether to take pity on me or laugh because it's to hilarious to even think of the word pity. And you know, like any old buddies that I have they know it wouldn't hurt my feelings if they die laughing about that incident, because I also found myself laughing about it and totally EW-ed at the same time.

Oh well, I was totally counting on RD to review me for the non-pro testing tomorrow. But then, it's RD, he's there when you least expect him to be. Well, not all times, just most.

Another thing about today, I think I'm 1000Php poor-er. I spent 500Php at the mall, & another 500Php for the MNG jeans me and my sister bought from some client who sells clothes she barely use. For a MNG jeans, that's totally cheap. ;) But then, I have to wear it with high heeled shoes because it's meant for that.

PS.

MNG jeans, size 6. Fat ass. :(

& I hope my phone's alarm would actually wake me up. It's 2am, I should be up at 6am. HAHA I'm going to the licensing really early, so I could still go to the mall in the afternoon/evening. I'm restless when it comes to shopping and hanging out. Whenever there's an opportunity, I at least try to grab it. :)

Jigo

Erik's leaving on the 10th of June. Suck ass. :( He's one of my best high school buddies, and now he's leaving to study for the US. I hope I can go out with them. We're planning a day out on June 3.

totally YUCK

I was soberly sick. I had diarrhea for 4 days and I got a little fever-ish too. After 5 lbs., and countless bathroom trips I'm sort of well now. Well, sort of, I think I'm having LBM again. Anyways, now I have colds. Our house is being repainted, I have a totally bad nose now. Good God I'm well now. I don't wanna be confined. ;p Well, if ever I will be, I'll have people visit me. HAHAHA That'll be awesome. ;)

I just came home from dinner with my South relatives. My cousin Nathan is a total cam whore. HAHAHA

There's this one anonymous number who's texting me, and saying alot of creepy stuffs. Freaks me out, totally.

18 in less than 6 months

A couple of weeks ago, Rosselle told me that I should already be planning my "debut" - because she is already, and it's not until May '07. I have been planning, at random times. I usually keep my head odd it, cos basically I'm broke - bought some stuffs, alot of things to pay. Sometimes it just sucks to try and be independent, and be me, anyways.

Plan A, aka Suite Plan:

Id be renting a suite somewhere in Ortigas or Makati. Then the theme would be like a black and white cocktail party without the cocktail HAHA or simply barefoot.

Black and white cocktail party, everyone should be dolled up and should be wearing black or white. But the food is the problem, cos we won't really be able to eat finger foods. But it would be kinda cool being all dressed up and you're chilling and stuffs. :)

Simply barefoot will revolve around one rule, shoes will be stored in the closet. HAHAHA Everyone will be barefoot as to represent simplicity. Also, everyone can be on their casual - jeans, shorts, tees, whatever they feel like wearing - as long as there's something.

The main point of these two ideas is A. to be able to chill with friends long enough, B. to see long time friends, and lastly C. to celebrate my "wo"man-hood (Jed insists that I'm a guy). I would totally love chilling with everybody... especially my high school buddies, in and out of OB.

And lastly, I'm planning to have 3 sets of 18 somethings. Probably one set could make me something priceless - something that's really made for me - I honestly don't need things that can be bought, I'd rather have something meaningful; Another set could be stars on a video that would allow them to tell me everything, hopefully nice, they want to let me know or something - more like the traditional 18 candles, but this one would only be viewed by me; And the last set, could be people I get to spend an hour with or could bring me their or my favorite desserts. - and I actually think the latter is better. HAHAHA

Pray for me to be able to save up cash for this whatever that I'm planning. :)

Oh, and I want this to be an overnight thing. So I'm actually looking for a huge space - as if there would be alot of people. Anyway, if there wouldn't be alot of people then it's better actually, our space would be bigger and it would be more comfortable. HAHA Anyway, I've thought of alot of people to come, so I was thinking of getting something with 3 bedrooms - girl's room, boy's room and my room. It's my birthday, I should be comfortable. Or a 2 bedroom, mixed up people. HAHA They're kinda used to it anyway. ;)

*

I went to Mall of Asia today. It was so big, bigger than Megamall and as bright as Podium. From what I know, I think the land area's 3 hectares. Anyway, I just did a stroll, didn't really entered the shops cos I was strolling with my dad. I think they have almost every shop you could think of, and restaurants too. Plus, there's a HUGE parking space in and out of the mall. Alot of people actually parked outside the mall, I can't really assure the safetyness and all since this is the Philippines.

alone

The world just turned it's back on me. :(

This is one of the worst days ever, I don't wanna talk about it.

PS.

I was able to unlock the phone, so I get to use it.

Nikki at 18

Nikki celebrated her womanhood at the Garden Ball of EDSA Shang. ;)

I came in just in time, and left kinda early but was able to finish the prog. Prog was good, dance and song numbers were fab, and oh my God... the food was good. We had lechon, HAHA. :) It's like gulping oil. Desserts were heavy, so I ate only a little. The band was kinda good too.

So, I came in a $5 Morgan & Co. Maroon dress. My face had cheek tint, lip gloss and a little powder. My hair was a total mess up. HAHA I love Niq, but I'm broke to have my look fixed. HAHA

Love you Nikki. Sorry I wasn't able to stay overnight, although I would love to. Thanks for the wonderful night.

PS.

I already have it, and I'm in love with it. :) O2 XDA II Mini.

lucky luck luck

I just remembered RD, a couple years back, wishing me g'luck on my search for that someone like him - someone who'd treat his girl right. When you think about it, he's kinda alright. He's kinda sweet when it comes to treating his girls, and he gets girls who don't treat him right. Sucks, I know. You treat the other person right, and in return, they treat you like a bitch.

G'luck to me tomorrow - watching Da Vinci Code in Glorietta. I hope they let me in. It's R18, I'm down by 6 months. :(

G'luck to me, I hope that I'd get my Mini soon. I'm overly excited, and it's killing me. I've already got alot of stuffs for it - talk about excitement.

G'luck to Franz, with his AnaPhy long test later at 8am. He's not yet studying, and hopefully at the moment he already is. Hopefully he won't sleep after he studies, he might not wake up on time. As for me, hopefully I could help him by waking him up or keeping him company.

"Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave." ;)

G'luck to Topher, for whatever he is planning to do with his love life & hope that he does the right thing.

G'luck to Kokai, to make good decisions especially at this point in her life. Hope that she'll do the right thing too.

G'luck to Jay, although he thinks he's flunking Math and that he might be taking it for the nth time... let's hope not. (I'm a good blockmate. ;))

Oh. Happy Birthday Niq! :) I loves you. :) See you Friday. :D

Before I forget...

Mr. Anonymous, NEVER, EVER call me a bitch. Because I'm not - never was, and never will be. It sucks that I treated you as a friend after everything that happened. I know I shouldn't, but I still gave you the benefit of the doubt. I guess I was wrong. This is a totally different you. And you know what? Since change is evident right now, think twice before calling me again cos I might not consider you as a friend anymore. I already gave you far too much consideration, and all this isht you've slapped me are more than enough to make me realize that you're not worth it, and you'll never be. But still, as nice as I can get... I hope you have a great life ahead of you, and hope that you wouldn't meet someone like you. And if ever you will, let's just say that karma still works.

Mark R., me and Jay got to talk about you. What happened to you SUCKS BIG TIME. We do hope that your souls at peace, we miss you. :(

RD's tita & daughter/son, what happened to the two you SUCKS BIG TIME too. It's really freaky that something like that is possible. I know RD, he's a good person, he'll take care of his family and cousins. As from what I know, he treats everyone as family. :)

Good people have so little time, but why? I just don't get it. :(

random feelings

1. Bummed - I don't have my Mini yet.

2. Happy - I'm going and YOU aren't.

3. Bored - There's just no one online, yet, to talk to.

4. Bloated - I've been eating a whole lot of food lately, and I can't help it cos there's just nothing to do.

5. Cold - The aircon's window is directed to my feet.

6. Excited - I'm watching a movie tomorrow, Da Vinci Code.

7. Incomplete - I wanna see 2 groups of people and 1 person. Group A, I'll be seeing on Friday at Monique's 18th. Group B, hopefully I'd see when I get my Mini. Person A, next year? I see Person A, only ONCE a year - and I'm wishing all that could change.

8. Broke - I'm saving up all my money to be able to pay for the Mini, and I can't shop as much.

9. Sad - I'm almost 18, and I still can't just hang out anytime.

10. Loner-ish - There's really no one to stay up with, talk to, and fall asleep with. Yes, sometimes I sleep with the phone/cellphone on my ears with someone on the other line. (Kinda started a long time ago, while I was talking to this someone. And eventually we became quiet, he fell asleep and, eventually I did too. Kinda sweet when you think about it. HAHA)

i COULD be a cellphone technician

I starting checking out how much unlocking a Mini would cost, and it can seriously burn your wallet into ashes. It cost about 600-1500PHP. This brought me to the internet, searching for possible ways of unlocking the unit. Luckily I found one possible way, and I guess before checking out GH or any other cellphone shop, I would try doing it on my own. I've seen the replies of ALOT of people already, and it worked so far. It says that I'd be working on my own risk, so I guess I'm taking the risk. So much for being kuripot, right? HAHAHA

My dad caught me. HAHA For being up at 1am.

My notebook was almost attacked by a Trojan. Thank God for Norton Internet Security.

I'm watching Da Vinci Code in Glorietta 4 on Thursday - with 2 of my aunts, my sister and Jacob? Myron? Topher? Iking? HAHA I don't know.

been thinking

Boredom brings up alot of stuffs from the past, what ifs, and what might have been.

Past... I figure that I miss having a guy best friend. And by that I mean, someone who I can call up anytime - wherever he is and whatever he's doing. We'd have hours of conversation and we would either hang up because were sleepy, not because we're bored or something, or we'd fall asleep. Someone I could really hang out with - just chill, watch tv or listen to music. And yes, someone who would force me to eat. Someone who generally has the same interest that I do, but there would still be alot of differences. Bottom line: I need a guy someone.

What if I took my chances on what I really wanted? Would things work out better? I guess, we wouldn't know, RIGHT? Cos I didn't. And now, I'm hoping that I'd come across that chance for the nth time. Once in a while, I need to give someone the benefit of the doubt.

I just got my OTH - Season 2.

watching: OTH - Season 2 (3/8)

EXCITED

I'm getting a XDA II Mini on Wednesday. <3

Right now, even if I'm a bit tired from window shopping, I'm downloading stuffs I could put on my future Mini.

It's so cold, I love the weather.

I'm done with Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2, and One Tree Hill - Season 1. I'm waiting for OTH - Season 2. HAHA Then Season 3. I just can't get enough. HAHAHA Drama, drama, drama. :)

my phone's totally screwed

Last night, I got a random phone call from I don't know who, cos like I said, my phone's totally screwed. I got 2 consecutive missed calls, and I didn't know that my phone was one beep mode - so I did miss the call. I was watching Yours, Mine, Ours when I got the call. So I couldn't call back, and I keep thinking that it could be an international call - but I highly doubt, cos my uncle's the only one who could probably call and he doesn't know my number, so it's not him. So, whoever it is, I'm sorry I wasn't able to pick up. I was focused on watching the movie, my phone was on beep mode, and I couldn't call back cos no number registered. I know that my phone's screwed up, cos my one of my girl best friends called me and her number didn't registered either.

I think I'm getting an XDA II Mini or something. I'm just wondering how on earth will I tell my dad.

I know typhoon's are bad, but I really love the weather. :)

gadgets

A couple of years back, I remember me telling myself that when I do get a digi cam and an mp3 player, I'd downgrade my cellphone to something that's really basic - something that could manage text messages, phone calls, phonebook, alarm clock, and a calendar. And I thought that was all I'd ever need.

Here am I now, going crazy over electronics again. New cams, new phones, portable dvd players... every little gadget that I've notice recently.

My Summer '06 boredom is on a different level now. It sucks ass big time. :(

watching: Laguna Beach Season 2 (8/9)

My nephew was throwing a tantrum when he woke up from his supposedly siesta. So I gave him my Doggy Bag puppy, which I love. And last thing I heard from my father is that he vomitted all over it. :(

communication or music?

Yesterday I've formally tried taking a lesson on the basics of guitar playing. I love guitar playing. HAHA :) My friend taught me a couple of stuffs way back in high school, and I kinda got hook into it. And now, I tried taking up a formal lesson. Kinda nice, but the guitar wasn't - the strings weren't nylon. Imagine the pain on my fingernails. And now... I'm torn between getting a guitar and a new flip phone.

Well, there's really a whole bunch of stuffs thatI have to consider in getting a new phone: 1. the apperance, 2. the camera, 3. connectivity, 4. phonebook, 5. expandable memory, 6. preferably quadband, 7. music, etc. There's a whole bunch of stuffs. I checked out phone from Nokia, Samsung, & Motorola. I haven't tried checking out Voda Phones.

On the other hand, if I'm getting a guitar. Then I'd just go for something that has nylon strings and that looks pretty.

Only reason why I'm getting a new phone - since no one text messages me that much, it would be kinda cool if I'd do a flip and answer a phone call. HOT. :) And I'm not getting 2 phones for myself, I'd most probably trade in my old one for a new one. I can't really manage a prepaid number, I don't really like the hassles of buying prepaid and running out of prepaid. Although in some cases having a prepaid number seems kinda cute, but now, I don't see any reason why I should be getting one.

water weight

I'm putting on ALOT of water on my system. HAHA WATER WEIGHT! I feel SOOO bloated.

Megamall, part 2

So now, it's not THAT big anymore. Or maybe I'm starting to get used to this mall everyday thing again. Pretty cool if you ask me. I love going to the mall, shopping or window shopping. And it's really awesome to see someone I haven't seen for a long time - which by the way, NEVER happened.

Anyways, I'm still striving to lose some weight - 20 lbs would be enough. HAHAHA

I'm really into this buying a new gadget at the moment. Now I've decided it's an XDA mini for me, or a Motorola v3i. I don't want the Motorola Pink/Magenta RAZR anymore, features weren't able to match what I need. So I figured it'll be a waste if I get one, and besides I can change the cover of my soon to be v3i. Now, I'm still saving up for it. That leaves me... DAYDREAMING. HAHAHA Sucks, I know.

OH. I heard this lovely family rumor. My grandmother, dad side, would love to celebrate her nth birthday by travelling abroad. The best part? With everyone. :) That'll be really great, cos 1. I get to travel, and 2. I get to spend time with my other relatives for a longer period. I'm wishing it'll be on the week of my birthday - but then, we might already have school by that time. And I want to spend some quality friends, I'll be 18. It'll be the BOMB. HAHA It's be and adult - sucks, I know. People would expect me to do more, be "responsible". That sucks big time.

So, as a soon to be adult. I'm suppose to be at a little get together on the 12th, Fontana - I'm praying hard already, I'm tied at home. Another debut on the 19th - which I'm excited about, my 1st formal one... Well, I was invited a thousand times, but this will be the 1st one that I'll be going to. HAHA Sucks to be me, I KNOW. I'm thinking of hair done, nails done, face done, and a cute dress. But then, I'm saving up for a new phone. HAHA

Better get my head straight before anything goes down. I need to straighten out a few things, fix my life, check my "responsibilities" and hopefully, when everything is already in mint condition, I'll be able to have time for myself.

I've been watching Laguna Beach rececntly, and the 4th disc can't seem to play on my laptop. I'll try work it out with the DVD player tomorrow - because no one, from what I know, is up at 2am. HAHA It's summer, OH WELL. It's the time of the year where insomia kicks in and treats you like a bitch.

Watching: Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2 (3/9) - Technically, I'm about to start Season 2.

MEGAmall

Really, it's a HUGE place. Well, it's the biggest mall I've been to, so far, I think. Me and my sister stayed at the department store until my nephew woke up from his siesta. Really huge, alot of great buys - I think. i kinda miss shopping. HAHA All this bum-ness is making me FAT. Really I feel that I get so tired easily, so I feel heavy and all that fat-ness.

So, I got this shirt from the department store, it has Charlie Chaplin's facec printed on it. It's size 12 or 14, something like that. It's kinda cute, and light colored. And I got this shirt from Seventeen, coffeehouse inspired. I got it on brown, so there's that coffee effect.

I'm kinda into brown these days.

The other day I got myself a brown jacket. HAHA

Oh well, I've been seeing alot of good shirts lately. I guess before school starts, my closet will be full of those silly shirts. HAHAHA

*cross my fingers* I hope tomorrow, we go shopping again. :)

A girl's a girl. Some hate the mall, but I love it. :) It's therapheutic. :D

TV mode, Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2 (2/9)

sucks that I had to leave early

Just when the party was lively, my dad had to call me to tell me I had to go home. Really sucks. I love mango float and fresh orange juice. HAHAHA And some other stuffs too. ;) Now I kinda wish that I could've stayed longer. GREAT PARTY :D I bumped into a couple of friends: Kat Canon, Karen, Micah, Pao, Kerv, Gen, Toni, Sasa, Marla, Trix.... And made new ones, Trish, Cat/Kat, Vina? Plus there was this hot dance number by her friends. ;) That's about it.

I miss someone. GREAT, just what I need after a fab party. HAHA Well, I kinda wish he was there. :) We should come up with a promise that when we reach 30 and single, we'll have to get married. HAHA Fun idea, I know.

Honore De Balzac

Sometimes you surf the internet with nothing in mind. Then you stumble onto something that's worth reading. Fact is: I'm bored and I need something worthwhile.

Love has its own instinct, finding the way to the heart, as the feeblest insect finds the way to its flower, with a will which nothing can dismay nor turn aside.

Love is like some fresh spring, first a stream and then a river, changing its aspect and its nature as it flows to plunge itself in some boundless ocean, where restricted natures only find monotony, but where great souls are engulfed in endless contemplation.

Love or hatred must constantly increase between two persons who are always together; every moment fresh reasons are found for loving or hating better.

The fact is that love is of two kinds—one which commands, and one which obeys. The two are quite distinct, and the passion to which the one gives rise is not the passion of the other.

Lovers have a way of using this word "nothing" which implies exactly the opposite.

If you are to judge a man, you must know his secret thoughts, sorrows, and feelings; to know merely the outward events of a man's life would only serve to make a chronological table—a fool's notion of history.

& tomorrow, I'd be posting something about loneliness. Another one of those that I'd stumble onto. Summer is a bore, and it's killing me gently. But come to think of it, it's better than going to school. And now, I wanna work. Pft. Nothing's easy, right?

18 Sonnets

I'm going to Dye's debut later at Embassy. God knows what I'll wear. Probably something that I can cover with a jacket/coat/whatever. I'm tasked to do a sonnet/poem for her, and I'm kinda pretty slow doing those kind of things. O well, it's her 18th, might as well come up with something nice, right?

Opt 1

Friendship is the kind of love that never can grow old.
Warm and cozy it will stay when other things are cold.
Friendship is a love so true it won't be denied,
because a friend will always be there close by your side.
Boyfriends and lovers come and go in this game of life we play,
But a true friend, no matter what, in your heart will always stay.
So hold these friends dear to you, and never let them go.
Think how much they mean to you, and make sure to tell them so.

Opt 2

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who knows where she's going, and will keep on until she gets there;
who knows not only what she wants from life, but what she has to offer in return.

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who is loyal to family and friends, who expects no more from others than she is willing to give;

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who guides and inspires not by quoting others philosophies, but by living her own good example;
who accepts both victories and disappointments with the same grace, and who can rise above life's challenges and move on.

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who gives the gifts of her thoughtfulness,
who shows her caring with a word of support, her understanding with a smile;
a woman who brings joy to others just by being herself.

I'm kinda hoping I bump into someone really really close, so I'd be comfortable. If not, it's Embassy, the bar's open - I guess. HAHAHA

Chemistry

It's a picture of me and my sister taken way way back. It's originally taken in black and white, and it works out just fine - with all that drama effecr. HAHAHA Anyways, I edited it, as usual, using photoshop. And this is how it ended. :)

What keeps YOU up at 4AM?

A good conversation with a good friend. HAHAHA This is one of the reasons why guys are the best people to talk to. :)

I have good friends, a lot of them, and I have a lot of catching up to do.

I'm not so sure with what I want, still.

"I would have given you all of my heart... But there's someone who's torn it apart... And he's taken just all that I have... But if you want I'll try to love again... Baby, I'll try to love again" - Sheryl Crow, The First Cut Is The Deepest

OTH - Season 1 (6/8)

It's been what? 4 days since I got the DVD and I'm down to 2 cds. Talk about boredom. HAHAHA Oh well... I love it, and I just can't get enough.