happy being happy

"There I was an empty piece of a shell
Just minding my own world
Without even knowing
What love and life were all about

Then you came, you brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me
And before I knew it
There I was so in love with you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feeling
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I'm gone beyond existing
And it all begun, when I met you."

- APO Hiking Society, When I Met You

Isn't this so mushy? :) There are just things that when you think about it, it feels great already. What more if it happens, right?

un triste

A sad one for that matter.

Random stuffs.

Movies.

10 Things I Hate About You

Music.

Dashboard Confessionals - As Lovers Go
Letters to Cleo - I Want You to Want Me
Lit - Completely Miserable
Adam Sandler - Grow Old With You

Questions.

Why?

Phrase.

Close enough is realizing that you are falling in love, but still you won't do anything about it. Primarily because there are too much to risk, and you don't want to take that risk cos neither are sure about where things will end up. Although you still want to keep whatever things that you have right now even if it's all messed up and crazy, cos it feels great. There's just no string attached, sometimes it's better that way. Eventually you'll hate the term commitment for what it does - it just either take everything away, or leave you with a happy ending. Good if it's the latter, and if it's not, expect the worst.

it's gonna happen, I'm sure

Not a 100% sure, but it's gonna happen. Things WILL change, in a good way or in a bad way, I don't know. All I know is that there COULD be major changes. I don't know who screwed up, I don't know how its gonna happen. It's just gonna be something spontaneous, this is worse than thinking about my preliminary exams.

I hate frowning, but this time I think it's becoming a normal thing for me. Can life be any worse than this? Let's just hope that it wouldn't. Cos if I couldn't take this anymore - that its causing me to rant & frown ALOT - what more if it's worse than this?

CAM WAR

Definitely one of my best days in school. :)

Me, Jeic & Berna had a CAM WAR. HAHAHA We were basically using 3 cam phones (Moto L6 & v3i, & O2 XDA II Mini) plus a digi cam (Canon PShot a400). We took ALOT of pics, from Frio back to the guidance office. Sneak peek: it's about 9mb of photos, & not all were posted. We had kami pics, brokeback pics, stolen shots & group pics. HAHAHA It was so fun. ;)

Do it again, do it again. :D

I loves it! ;)

PS.

Me & Berna continued the cam war after school, at this dinner birthday party of one of our relatives. We were joined by our 2 aunts. Although this time, there were 2 phones & 2 digi cams. & less pics. HAHA Still.. It reached 5mb.

Tiring day, but it was worth it. Cos I had lots of fun. :D

It can't be

But if you are, then I'll say "sure". :D

But if you're not, then better. :)

"All I want is somebody who cares." :)

Everything...

I don't know what's going on, why everything is going this way & not that way. Some things suck, while some don't. It's really a bitch... I mean, why can't everything just be good? Have I had enough of my good times? Did I not cherish those moments? If this is a part of growing up, then let's all be immature & be happy. I miss old times, when everything seemed so perfect.

Again, I found something meaningful but how come other things that matter doesn't seem to go well? Do good things really go with something bad? It just sucks :(

I'm happy now, but then some things make me sad too. A lot of things actually. & it's not ordinary sadness, it's close to an extreme cos somethings are at risk & those things matter.

Recently, when I'm lonely... there's just no one to run to. Someone who I can talk to about anything and everything without feeling a little weird. I miss having someone to wake up right in the middle of the night, & just rant to. & eventually that person could make me laugh, smile or something. I miss having someone close. :(

This sucks big time..

Change, I know it's something constant but I don't think I have it right now. Everything seems to be like steadily sad or screwed up. I miss change, that is if change's going to do me better.

Darn. I sound shitty like a 5 year old begging for a bar of chocolate. Although, this is different. I'm a 17 year old neurotic, craving for attention & love.

Will you brighten up my day?

With just one simple phrase, you did. Although... I still wanna know if its true or not, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Cos I know you do. There's just no reason why you would state that knowing that other people listen, if it doesn't mean anything.

& I guess that it's alright that the first person I expected to respond didn't, cos one of the best friends that I got did. Labelling you as one of the best people that I've meet so far, is kind off like a great deal. Choosing you as my friend took some time, & to actually give someone time to know that person means that you already are important.

To you who cheered me up, THANKS! I don't care if it's true or not, cos I know - IT IS. :)