state the obvious

& the truth is... I LOVE. :)

happy being happy

"There I was an empty piece of a shell
Just minding my own world
Without even knowing
What love and life were all about

Then you came, you brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me
And before I knew it
There I was so in love with you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feeling
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I'm gone beyond existing
And it all begun, when I met you."

- APO Hiking Society, When I Met You

Isn't this so mushy? :) There are just things that when you think about it, it feels great already. What more if it happens, right?

un triste

A sad one for that matter.

Random stuffs.

Movies.

10 Things I Hate About You

Music.

Dashboard Confessionals - As Lovers Go
Letters to Cleo - I Want You to Want Me
Lit - Completely Miserable
Adam Sandler - Grow Old With You

Questions.

Why?

Phrase.

Close enough is realizing that you are falling in love, but still you won't do anything about it. Primarily because there are too much to risk, and you don't want to take that risk cos neither are sure about where things will end up. Although you still want to keep whatever things that you have right now even if it's all messed up and crazy, cos it feels great. There's just no string attached, sometimes it's better that way. Eventually you'll hate the term commitment for what it does - it just either take everything away, or leave you with a happy ending. Good if it's the latter, and if it's not, expect the worst.

it's gonna happen, I'm sure

Not a 100% sure, but it's gonna happen. Things WILL change, in a good way or in a bad way, I don't know. All I know is that there COULD be major changes. I don't know who screwed up, I don't know how its gonna happen. It's just gonna be something spontaneous, this is worse than thinking about my preliminary exams.

I hate frowning, but this time I think it's becoming a normal thing for me. Can life be any worse than this? Let's just hope that it wouldn't. Cos if I couldn't take this anymore - that its causing me to rant & frown ALOT - what more if it's worse than this?

CAM WAR

Definitely one of my best days in school. :)

Me, Jeic & Berna had a CAM WAR. HAHAHA We were basically using 3 cam phones (Moto L6 & v3i, & O2 XDA II Mini) plus a digi cam (Canon PShot a400). We took ALOT of pics, from Frio back to the guidance office. Sneak peek: it's about 9mb of photos, & not all were posted. We had kami pics, brokeback pics, stolen shots & group pics. HAHAHA It was so fun. ;)

Do it again, do it again. :D

I loves it! ;)

PS.

Me & Berna continued the cam war after school, at this dinner birthday party of one of our relatives. We were joined by our 2 aunts. Although this time, there were 2 phones & 2 digi cams. & less pics. HAHA Still.. It reached 5mb.

Tiring day, but it was worth it. Cos I had lots of fun. :D

It can't be

But if you are, then I'll say "sure". :D

But if you're not, then better. :)

"All I want is somebody who cares." :)

Everything...

I don't know what's going on, why everything is going this way & not that way. Some things suck, while some don't. It's really a bitch... I mean, why can't everything just be good? Have I had enough of my good times? Did I not cherish those moments? If this is a part of growing up, then let's all be immature & be happy. I miss old times, when everything seemed so perfect.

Again, I found something meaningful but how come other things that matter doesn't seem to go well? Do good things really go with something bad? It just sucks :(

I'm happy now, but then some things make me sad too. A lot of things actually. & it's not ordinary sadness, it's close to an extreme cos somethings are at risk & those things matter.

Recently, when I'm lonely... there's just no one to run to. Someone who I can talk to about anything and everything without feeling a little weird. I miss having someone to wake up right in the middle of the night, & just rant to. & eventually that person could make me laugh, smile or something. I miss having someone close. :(

This sucks big time..

Change, I know it's something constant but I don't think I have it right now. Everything seems to be like steadily sad or screwed up. I miss change, that is if change's going to do me better.

Darn. I sound shitty like a 5 year old begging for a bar of chocolate. Although, this is different. I'm a 17 year old neurotic, craving for attention & love.

Will you brighten up my day?

With just one simple phrase, you did. Although... I still wanna know if its true or not, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Cos I know you do. There's just no reason why you would state that knowing that other people listen, if it doesn't mean anything.

& I guess that it's alright that the first person I expected to respond didn't, cos one of the best friends that I got did. Labelling you as one of the best people that I've meet so far, is kind off like a great deal. Choosing you as my friend took some time, & to actually give someone time to know that person means that you already are important.

To you who cheered me up, THANKS! I don't care if it's true or not, cos I know - IT IS. :)

WHAT A DAY!?

I think I only got 1 or 2 shots for Korfball. But Patrick & Adrian were awesome. ;)

I got dressed up in Fe's bathroom, which was so dark & scary cos it's a hospital. DAMNIT. I really hope she gets well soon though, she looks AWFUL. :(

I got to my Socio class pretty late. I wasn't marked absent though, but I left all my stuffs in the guidance - fortunately the lesson for the day's going to be uploaded.

& again, I left my waiver for tomorrow's play at home. So I had to go to the Institute of Religion during Chem Lec class to get myself a waiver or else they "wouldn't" let me in the cinema to watch the play tomorrow.

There were a couple of times when I got totally hungry & there was no one to eat with. So it sucked so bad. Then when I had someone to eat with, I was already too tired to eat.

English class was really a bum. My prof is SOOO gay, & I mean that literally.

All the people I've texted before Chem Lab class starts didn't reply.

Chem Lab SUCKS big time. I was totally hungry when I got in, but too tired to even eat & bummed cos I had no one to go with. The electric fan that I use/own is broken. When I got out to sit beside the plants, the cement was effing HOT - turned out alright cos it was kinda windy outside.

When I attended Chem Lab class, I didn't expect that we'd be doing an experiment. But we did,
& I didn't have a lab gown. So instead, I had Bong & Billy look out for me & hung out with Topher around the vicinity.

My prof marked me absent on Chem Lab class, which I eventually approached him so he would erase it. Well, he did. Good, or else. HAHAHA Or else, he'll totally bitch me out.

I feel completely obese. :( but I'm hungry. & I'm still trying to get a hold of my appetite.

My phone's bluetooth icon's not appearing on the today screen.

I'm still LSS: No Doubt - Underneath It All.

& lastly, the first person I totally miss being buddies with is hooked. I don't wanna mess up with him, but I kinda miss the guy. & I won't do anything about it.

Why can't I just go out & take pictures of anything & everything beautiful? Why can't I just call someone & feel free to tell him/her everything that seems so interesting? I wanna be who I wanna be. I miss being out, just hanging out... talking to the few people who still want me to be there & not to someone who would question my existence.

Typhoon Glenda

This typhoon's leaving alot of families homeless. Well, I'm just assuming since I haven't been watching the news lately. If this is the case, we shouldn't really be rejoicing.

I'm trying to keep myself away from plates, spoons or forks.. Or anything sweet for that matter. I've been gaining weight since these because-there's-a-typhoon-so-there's-no-classes days.

I'm still in need of a buddy. It's so weird that I couldn't easily open up to someone new anymore. So I guess I can't really go steady cos it's screwing up my life. HAHA But I guess it still depends. I should catch up with more people, like my old buddy? Who appparently, doesn't know me that much anymore.

now I KNOW

...how I choose the people I get close with, stick with and tell everything. It seems like I choose people who have big hearts, who I know will be there when I need him or her, who'll know when I'm not in a good mood, who keeps me pampered & of course, those who are willing to be my buddies & love me back.

I saw my friends profile, & saw one of his buddy's profile as well. & I've learned that he's one of those rare people who have big hearts - those who doesn't choose their friends based on their physique. It's just so COOL. HAHAHA I find it sweet. (:

School's really stressing me out lately, it kinda sucks. But again, it isn't bad as it used to be. :)

I finally got my Korfball uniform. The jersey looked kinda nice, but then the skort - skirt & short - kinda sucked. So I guess I'm still wearing jogging pants going to school, & changing right before I go to PE class.

....Prelims' coming up. I don't know if I'm excited or something. HAHA I'm so messed up.

I either have to write about something that I don't know what, or photoshop something. Really, I am messed up.

I wanna watch 'Hitch'. There's just A LOT to learn.

to sleep or not to sleep, THAT is the question

Sleeping late in the afternoon, & waking up in the middle of the night SUCKS SO BAD. It's been bringing me sleepless nights. Like yesterday, I slept like 430 in the morning & woke up around 530. That's not so decent. Well, yea, now I complain about it after doing it. My eyes turned out so poofy & I can barely move a muscle.

& this afternoon, I slept again & woke up about 8 in the evening. Although right now, my system's dictating me to catch up with my sleep. I really want to, but then I can't leave my laptop charging overnight - it'll screw up the battery.

O yea, & I've not eating so much - starving myself, & filling myself up with biscuits. I feel totally fat & broke. HAHA

Tomorrow's Tomasino Walk, I really wish that they'd suspend the classes from 3 onwards. It sucks. This isn't my week, I'm so not in the mood to attend any of my classes - but I still did. I'm so stressed, tired.... What else? It just sucks.

I miss travelling. On the road or by plane, it doesn't matter. I just wanna see something new again, & capture it with my lens.

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1. Cigarette: pan de sal HAHAHA
2. Sex: can lead to something.
3. Relationship: it can be good or bad.
4. Your Last Out of town: :)
5. Power rangers: I used to watch this when I was a kid.
6. Marijuana: brownies.
7. Crack: is a 5 letter word.
8. Food: chocolate cake from Mezze :)
9. Love: can also cause sadness.
10. War: Troy.
11. Car: Mitsu Eclipse <3
12. Gas Prices: are killing me
13. Halloween: Trick or Treat. ;)
14. Bon Jovi: Oh, Bon, I remember when we were hanging out way way back.. HAHAHA
15. Religion: I believe I'm agnostic
16. MySpace: if there's a space in-between those two words could me a lot more.
17. Worst fear: not having cash. HAHAHA
18. Marriage: maybe, maybe not.
19. Fashion: I just remembered, I have to do some shopping.
20. Brunettes: lovely.
21: Redheads: hm...
22: Work: second thing to allowance, in terms of getting money.
23: Past time: browsing..
24: Football: Italy.
25: One night stands: not my thing.
26: Pet Peeve: when people are expected to reply, & doesn't
27. Pixie Stix: are the cheapest ever.
28. Vanilla Ice Cream: vanilla smlls nice.
29: Porta Potties: so unhygienic.
30: High school: musical, one of the best movies I've seen. 4c rocks (:
31: Pajamas: Silk.
32. Wood: stock.
33. Surfers: yummy. (:
34. Pictures: live it, love it - Hong Kong.
35. First Love: puppy love.

Mezze, Greenbelt

I touched my nose pimple, so now it's a scar. :(

We - sister & husband & my nephew - attended a late dinner birthday party in Mezze. The food was really great. It didn't look great because everything seemed so dry, but it was AWESOME. I even wanted to go for a second round, but I was too shy to.

My nephew, mind you he's 2.5 years old, loves the party scene. The sounds, the people - Oh well, you really gotta love it. ;)

I'm still thinking of what to do for my birthday. I'm kinda... SO excited.

NO SCHOOL

Somehow it sucked, but it doesn't really. It sucked cos that'll only mean that on Friday, we'll be having 2 quizzes - both Chemistry. But somehow it'll be easier to study cos it will, more or less, cover the same topic. Plus, it sucked cos I woke up around 5, and by 8am, I'm done preparing myself. But its good that there's no school today, I didn't go to school anymore cos my class starts at 1 & classes were suspended by 11. Pretty tiring day though.

Oh well... Better enjoy the day. It's a pretty lovely day. The weather's GREAT - cold and comfy. But it's making me fat, all I have done is eat and sleep.

I think I'm a jinx cos whenever I study, the quiz gets cancelled. But still, I'm gonna study. I need to pass. ;)

Study, study, study... I'm so sleepy. HAHA

..I need a buddy.

socio is stressing me

Why would she care about the suicide statistics in the Philippines? It's just so hard to find, even on the net. Or I'm just not using the proper keywords for it. Oh well, whatever it is, I'm just so tired - stressed out today.

lovely weather

It's raining, it's cold & I'm totally lovin' it. :)

It's a day where you can dress up anyway you want, wear jackets and all that comfortable thick clothing. It's just awesome. ;)

But then again... I'm bored... There's no one to talk to... :( Crap... It's giving me that feeling again... What's that feeling? Only some can tell. :s

This isn't good.

get me some

& this is what its all about. This is what I've been talking about for the longest time.

CRAVINGS.

Right at this very moment, while I have a big amount of hate on my head, I am craving. Craving for dried mangoes. SHIT.

Random favourites, random stuffs, random days.

Someone.... please.... bring me some tomorrow. Or accompany me to somewhere I can get some. (: Effort is totally appreciated.

what's wrong?!

I was right in the middle of my online NSTP quiz when the stupid UST server bitched me out. And now I'm feeling worse than ever. It suck ass.

This day sucks. Although I was kinda alright this morning compared to yesterday. Yesterday was a total bitch. I was SO NOT in the mood to do anything - attend class, listen, talk - I still did though. But still, the feeling of not wanting to do anything is like a bitch.

ARGH.

End of the week is near. Thank God?

I'm still not secure about anything. But I'm quite comfortable. I can still breathe I guess. This won't last long - & let's hope that this isn't true.

it resembles Sheryl Crow's song

The First Cut Is The Deepest.

My 2.5 year old nephew met an accident today. I wasn't there to stand as witness though, so all I could state are the stuffs that I've been told. It goes a little something like this...

My nephew's dad is going to prepare for work. So my dad asked my mother to ask my nephew's dad what time he'd be leaving. Then the next thing my dad knew is that one of our household help was knocking at my dad's door, telling him that my nephew was downstairs BLEEDING. For crying out loud, what an irresponsible person is the one who's watching him. A rule for everyone who has a kid at their home, especially the ones who can't talk yet, NEVER TAKE YOUR EYES OFF THEM. It would be the most stupid thing one could ever do. Well, next to that is taking the responsibility to watch them, and you don't. Carelessness can cause one big accident. And this time it did, a HUGE one in fact. My mom took over the responsibility of watching my nephew because my dad was resting. Hard headed, my mom is. She took little cute nephew out of his room, brought him out to the garage under the scrouching heat of the sun and make him run around. One thing led to another, his arm got caught on the scooter's plate holder. And the rest is a DISASTER.

Crappy, it is. My nephew has an almost 4" cut on his left arm. Thank GOD it didn't hit his veins. He still cries whenever the pain is extreme. I mean, who wouldn't? I passed out on a tiny cut on my finger, and almost did again at the site of blood.

This day turned out to be a bitch. With that cut, that DEEP cut, I couldn't forgive her - EVER. I have so much hate for her. And she doesn't deserve any respect, cos she hasn't been acting how she should - since day 1.

tempura & shoes

Well school doesn't stress me as much as it used to, cos I get to hang out with new people now. Only they're my sister's buddies first, so there's still this awkward thing that I get - but hopefully, sometime soon I'd get used to it. School still gets me tired, & because of that I still don't study as much. Longer hours in school, & sometimes I have to baby sit. It's all good though, no one's really complaining. ;)

I bumped into a couple of high school buddies when I was loittering around Theatre Mall this morning. First, on my wait to get my sleepy self a hot choco, I bumped into one of my high school best buddies. So I cancelled my hot choco, which turned out to be I wasn't so interested in. Instead I walked with her to buy a pair of shoe and a bag. & eventuallly ate brunch together at Dozo. I wish I could bump into her more. For one, I totally miss high school. & I miss hanging out with my best buddies.

While we were having brunch, we bumped into another high school personality. He looked awfully thin now - considering when we were just starting high school, he was extremely obese.

Times have changed. People seemed to be so busy right now. But then, we all have our different circles. & now, I'm glad I do. I'm starting to be normal again. Well, slowly evolving. :) Not so social, but getting back on the track probably.

who's got inspiration?

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love. "

- Rose Walker, Sandman #65

"We were never lovers, and we never will be, now. I do not regret that, however. I regret the conversations we never had, the time we did not spend together. I regret that I never told him that he made me happy, when I was in his company. The world was the better for his being in it. These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid. And he is gone, and I am old. "

- Lady Bast, Sandman #72

"At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one."

- Peyton, One Tree Hill

My head is totally blank. Nothing to say. Nothing to work with. No one to talk to. There's completely nothing in me. Blank. Tired. So incomplete. I need some... thing? one? I don't know... All I know is that I need it to fill me up.

NSTP

screw the e-LeAP, it's still not working. My first class was started late, & dismissed early. Unfortunately, my Personality professor is out sick. Fortunately, my sister's on break, Yen's class won't start til 3 & in a while, the other guys will be on break too. Then we had lunch together. (:

Me, Yen & Berna bought Yellow Cab - 18" Manhattan MeatLovers - Gov. Forbes. Met up with the other guys & rocked Forbes Place's lobby.

So now, we all parted cos they all have class at 1. I'm suppose to be checking my NSTP Module 1... Unfortunately, UST suck ass, so it's not yeat uploaded. Bitchy, if you ask me. But in some way, it's kinda great.

BLAH. I have an hour to go, by myself. & God, this will happen to me every Thursday for the First Sem. Well, it's better than last year. I remember spending all my break time in the library last year. So the people behind the counter here in the Internet room already know me by face. & also the people in the Baggage Counter. But now, I have less breaktimes, so I'll be spending less time here.

Oh. & my manual's cover's done. I had Jacob do some sketched, so it looks better than everyone else's manual. (:

their LOVE story

When all the cards has been laid out, there's no turning back. So, what's the latest? He loves her, & she doesn't love him back - anymore. Now, THAT is SHOCKING. Well... As we all have said, TRUTH HURTS. We can't do anything about it, but accept the facts & find something better or probably something more satisfying. All I know is that, I'm trying to be a better person. ;)

My sched still sucks at the moment. I had the longest break today, 12-230. I had lunch at Beanhoppers' Cafe with Jacob, Den & Hope. Where Jacob drew stuffs on my arm, pretty neat so it was actually fine. Then their break's over, so they passed me to Topher, Marvin & Tyrone. We stayed at, I think their favorite food place, Sticks & Bowls - where I had a stick of BBQ. That's where I've concluded that they do eat fast, so we finished early & headed to the Guidance Office. Eventually, I went to my class & was, as usual, dismissed early cos Sir Manaloto?'s gonna have a meeting with Father. In fairness, my day went kinda good. Except for the thing that I'm actually thinking of going to the dermatologist again.

I'm sending out my condolences to Jed. First, his PC died & was sent to the shop. Eventually got revived. Next, his internet server stopped sending him bills & eventually cut off their connection. & just recently, his monitor burned out. Talk about BAD LUCK.

when you want to capture something....

FIND THE LIGHT. :)

This school year could probably be better. At least I'm now hanging out with some people. :) Still LOSER-ish, but... WHO CARES, right?

I miss hanging out with GH people, or at least the people I hung out with earlier this year. :)

another semester

Well, it's official I'm a total loner in that classroom. First of school, totally killed me. I had 3 classes, from 10-4 - with a 1-230 break. During that break, I stayed at the library for a while - played text twist til my head ached. I also finished the stuffs I have to deal with at the Accounting Office - although I still have to drop off something on Monday or Tuesday. Spending an entire year with the same people in one room & not making a single buddy, makes me a total anti-social loser. But then again, if they don't like me, FINE. After my last class, I headed home - rested for a while - and went to the mall after. Bought some stuffs for home and school. We had so little time that we weren't able to eat anymore. I left the mall with my stomache aching and got home a little before 11. Got home, cleaned myself up, ate dinner and went straight to bed. Amazingly, I was dog tired, I lied down, closed my eyes and next thing I knew, I had to wake up again for school.

But then, I kinda think that second day of school sucked more, but it's not that bad. I baby sitted my nephew during his toddler school session, which lasted for a couple of hours. Then I have to get to school after that & attend a class which will last until 7 in the evening. Fortunately, it was a lab class & first meeting. So it only lasted til 5 in the afternoon. After that my dad, with my mom, picked me up at school. As usual, we were with my mom, so she asked my dad to drive her around the metro - which drives my dad totally insane. Well... I could understand that, cos it'll also drive me insane - with all the traffic and screw them pedestrians, just thinking about it drives me nuts. I got home around 7, suprisingly my sister who came home from Cavite got home first.

I feel so wasted. But it's kinda better now, than it was before. Past is past, it's just a memory, and the only good thing we can do about it, is to learn from it. I think I have. :)

Erik leaves tonight

I feel kinda sad that one of my best high school buddies is leaving. Well, I'm totally bummed cos I didn't get to see him before he leaves. Totally sucks, I really hopes that he goes back soon. :(

Today, most of the people I know goes back to school. Tomorrow, more people are going back to schoo - including my nephew. & as for Science people, we won't go to school until Thursday. & yes, Ateneans go to school on the 19th. So much for having vacation. HAHAHA It's kinda good that I'm going back to school. At least I'm gonna lose all the weight I've gained during the summer. Plus, it also means that Tokyo Drift is coming up. :) I'm a tad bit excited already. ;)

Saturday, HA I'm seeing Richard - after a long while that is. Ever since they graduated high school, I only see him once a year - whenever he celebrates his birthday. O no, make that maximum of thrice a year, when my sister and I celebrate our birthday. Although last year, no one really celebrated their birthday. I kinda just hanged out with few of my friends and that was it. We didn't really eat or anything. So this Saturday, as tradition we would probably bring him one of the Sugar House cakes again. He kinda loved the Cookies n' Cream cake we traditionally give him. I don't think they still have that though. So if they don't, we could bring him my personal favorite from Sugar House - Concorde.

hooooly porsche

I watched Cars yesterday. It was sooooo cute. Tim watched it too. :)

nike rockstar - hip-hop

Nike just sent me my Nike Rockstar Workout - Hip Hop DVD. :) I'm so excited to see it. ;)

I'm so bummed. School's gonna start in a week, I just couldn't believe it.

Cars: The Movie

McD's came up with the Cars happy meal. I don't usually collect toys from Happy Meals, because most of the time their sucky. But this one totally changed my mind. Aside from the fact that I collect hot cars, this one comes really cheap - compared to the cars I previously purchased. Totally cheap, think about it.... If you get the Burger McD Happy Meal, that's 66Php. Burger cost like 25Php, & let's say the drink cost about 10Php. That's like 31Php for the toy. Compared to the cars I bought when we went to California. I bought this low rider from a shop near Hollywood, & I think it cost about $20+ - that's roughly about 1000Php.

I'm collecting the cars from the Happy Meal. I've got a month to do that - it only runs from June 1 -30, 2006. So limited time, so much money will be put to waste. HAHAHA

So far, I have Fillmore, Luigi & Ramone (violet). Lightning is still with my tita, she hasn't sent it over to me yet. Then later, I asked my sister to get me one. She'd be probably getting Mater or Sally. I think there are certain cars that are out of stock in some branches - I think those branches are the ones in popular places, like Glorietta.

Anyways, I have 6 to go? Ramone - yellow & green, Flo, Guido, Doc Hudson, Sally, & Mater. Sad thing is that they don't have the minor characters like Mack, Sheriff, Chick & King. I hope I'd be able to get those cars too. I kinda wish they push that out for next month, & not some lousy toys again. HAHAHA

PS.

There's a rivalry starting between my nephew & me. He's starting to treat Fillmore as his own. GRR.. HAHAHA

sophomore: 1st sem

WOW. What is wrong with the world? My schedule totally sucks. :(

M - 1-7pm
TTH - 10-1pm
W - 1-4pm
F - 9-7pm

What else could suck? GOD, my pe is korfball. WHAT ON EARTH IS KORFBALL!? Plus, my TTH is mor eor less not definite yet, I don't have my Philo 5 class schedule yet. Which makes it suckier, because I think our schedule's mixed up again.

The only good thing about my schedule is... i get to go to Greenhills every Monday and Wednesday. Well, I'm kinda hoping that I could still change my PE, so I could also go to GH every Friday. ;) Although another downside to this story is that I don't really have so much purpose on going to GH now.. :(

Still my schedule sucks but in a good way. I don't get break times anymore. Which is a good thing, because that gives me a reason not to mingle so much with my blockmates - which you would rarely catch me doing.

... Can have everything. I assure you.

midnight madness

I was in Glorietta last Friday to check out the midnight madness. & really, I find it totally awesome. It was the best so far, WAY BETTER than last year. Although the freebies that Ayala provided was kinda lame. Last year, they offered Smores and now they only gave out Nestea Ice.

I kinda saw people too. It's becoming a small world for me too. HAHAHA I was my high school Journalism lecturer, Ms. Meollo - if she's still a Miss. & I saw Topher and his family too. & probably there are other people who saw me too, but didn't approach me.

We ate in Super Bowl. We had the usual - Yang Chow Rice & Crispy Noodles with Beef Brisket - and we just added the mutated Lemon Chicken.

Then we had ourselves taken home by our aunts. ;) They were on the same place, only arrived a little later. HAHA Then my dad was kinda tired, so he asked my aunts to bring us home instead.

So anyways, at the end of the night. I found myself scoring 2 shirts for myself. One is from Spoofs Unlimited, the shirt says "Fakers 8". Then another shirt from Tomato, it was kinda plain blue with 'Resort' printed at the top left back side.

And finally, there's a WWE shop in Glorietta. HAHA WWE rocks Ayala. ;) I want 2 shirts from that shop too. One is Randy Orton's RKO - Legend Killer shirt, and the other is HBK's shirt - I kinda forgot what was written at the back. What else? I want another shirt from Tomato, that I think I'm getting later. ;)

I know... I LOVE shirts. ;)

I'm so depressed that I wasn't able to go today, today's the 2nd night for Midnight Madness. But I'm kinda happy that I'm going later. :D

music

"It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life."

- Green Day, Time Of Your Life

"There's always that one person
That will always have your heart"

- Usher & Alicia Keys, My Boo

"I was alone thinking I was just fine
I wasn't looking for anyone to be mine
I thought love was just a fabrication
A train that wouldn't stop at my station"

- Everything But The Girl, I Didn't Know I Was Looking For Love

"I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, I need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And I will fall...."

- MYMP, A Little Bit

"Well I'm so tired
Of falling in love
Finding it easier to fall out
You can't deny it"

- Eagle Eye Cherry, Falling In Love Again

it's official...

I am a non-professional driver, with restriction 2 only. :(

I'm so dog tired. I slept at 4a, after havin a little arguement with Ralph. Sister woke me up at 645a, because stupid alarm clock didn't activate. Prepared myself, & by 8a I was ready to go. Left home, arrived at the LTO around 9a. Did a whole bunch of stuffs, & after 6 dreadful hours... I have my license, & my prettiest one. ;) I looked totally cheerful. HAHAHA

After LTO, we headed to Binondo to drop off something. Then we had snack at some old chinese restaurant, kikiam & hot choco - not a good combination, i know. Then we headed home.

Spent a little time at home, then we took off. Mall. :D Every girl loves the mall. :) Went around for 3 or more hours, with completely no agenda. Then home. Dog tired. My legs are starting to kill me. Plus I'm so sleepy I have to get to bed early, I'm starting again early tomorrow - baby sitting.

I saw 2 adorable guys at the LTO. HAHAHA But it was no places for meeting people. The place is so hot that it won't really make you smile when they take your picture - that explains all those grumpy faces in the license of majority of our population.

I'm excited for Friday. :) Our agenda: Mondragon & Glorietta. Shop til I drop, or my wallet empties.

non pro license

I'm getting my exam for my non-pro driver's license tomorrow. My driving future is actually based on this one, cos if I do flunk this I won't really be able to drive this school year. And this school year, we might be actually driving ourselves to school already. :) Which is actually a good thing for far too many reasons.

Anyways, I was talking to Jed and our conversation eventually led to my P. Noval incident - which if you wanna know the story, feel free to approach me and be confused whether to take pity on me or laugh because it's to hilarious to even think of the word pity. And you know, like any old buddies that I have they know it wouldn't hurt my feelings if they die laughing about that incident, because I also found myself laughing about it and totally EW-ed at the same time.

Oh well, I was totally counting on RD to review me for the non-pro testing tomorrow. But then, it's RD, he's there when you least expect him to be. Well, not all times, just most.

Another thing about today, I think I'm 1000Php poor-er. I spent 500Php at the mall, & another 500Php for the MNG jeans me and my sister bought from some client who sells clothes she barely use. For a MNG jeans, that's totally cheap. ;) But then, I have to wear it with high heeled shoes because it's meant for that.

PS.

MNG jeans, size 6. Fat ass. :(

& I hope my phone's alarm would actually wake me up. It's 2am, I should be up at 6am. HAHA I'm going to the licensing really early, so I could still go to the mall in the afternoon/evening. I'm restless when it comes to shopping and hanging out. Whenever there's an opportunity, I at least try to grab it. :)

Jigo

Erik's leaving on the 10th of June. Suck ass. :( He's one of my best high school buddies, and now he's leaving to study for the US. I hope I can go out with them. We're planning a day out on June 3.

totally YUCK

I was soberly sick. I had diarrhea for 4 days and I got a little fever-ish too. After 5 lbs., and countless bathroom trips I'm sort of well now. Well, sort of, I think I'm having LBM again. Anyways, now I have colds. Our house is being repainted, I have a totally bad nose now. Good God I'm well now. I don't wanna be confined. ;p Well, if ever I will be, I'll have people visit me. HAHAHA That'll be awesome. ;)

I just came home from dinner with my South relatives. My cousin Nathan is a total cam whore. HAHAHA

There's this one anonymous number who's texting me, and saying alot of creepy stuffs. Freaks me out, totally.

18 in less than 6 months

A couple of weeks ago, Rosselle told me that I should already be planning my "debut" - because she is already, and it's not until May '07. I have been planning, at random times. I usually keep my head odd it, cos basically I'm broke - bought some stuffs, alot of things to pay. Sometimes it just sucks to try and be independent, and be me, anyways.

Plan A, aka Suite Plan:

Id be renting a suite somewhere in Ortigas or Makati. Then the theme would be like a black and white cocktail party without the cocktail HAHA or simply barefoot.

Black and white cocktail party, everyone should be dolled up and should be wearing black or white. But the food is the problem, cos we won't really be able to eat finger foods. But it would be kinda cool being all dressed up and you're chilling and stuffs. :)

Simply barefoot will revolve around one rule, shoes will be stored in the closet. HAHAHA Everyone will be barefoot as to represent simplicity. Also, everyone can be on their casual - jeans, shorts, tees, whatever they feel like wearing - as long as there's something.

The main point of these two ideas is A. to be able to chill with friends long enough, B. to see long time friends, and lastly C. to celebrate my "wo"man-hood (Jed insists that I'm a guy). I would totally love chilling with everybody... especially my high school buddies, in and out of OB.

And lastly, I'm planning to have 3 sets of 18 somethings. Probably one set could make me something priceless - something that's really made for me - I honestly don't need things that can be bought, I'd rather have something meaningful; Another set could be stars on a video that would allow them to tell me everything, hopefully nice, they want to let me know or something - more like the traditional 18 candles, but this one would only be viewed by me; And the last set, could be people I get to spend an hour with or could bring me their or my favorite desserts. - and I actually think the latter is better. HAHAHA

Pray for me to be able to save up cash for this whatever that I'm planning. :)

Oh, and I want this to be an overnight thing. So I'm actually looking for a huge space - as if there would be alot of people. Anyway, if there wouldn't be alot of people then it's better actually, our space would be bigger and it would be more comfortable. HAHA Anyway, I've thought of alot of people to come, so I was thinking of getting something with 3 bedrooms - girl's room, boy's room and my room. It's my birthday, I should be comfortable. Or a 2 bedroom, mixed up people. HAHA They're kinda used to it anyway. ;)

*

I went to Mall of Asia today. It was so big, bigger than Megamall and as bright as Podium. From what I know, I think the land area's 3 hectares. Anyway, I just did a stroll, didn't really entered the shops cos I was strolling with my dad. I think they have almost every shop you could think of, and restaurants too. Plus, there's a HUGE parking space in and out of the mall. Alot of people actually parked outside the mall, I can't really assure the safetyness and all since this is the Philippines.

alone

The world just turned it's back on me. :(

This is one of the worst days ever, I don't wanna talk about it.

PS.

I was able to unlock the phone, so I get to use it.

Nikki at 18

Nikki celebrated her womanhood at the Garden Ball of EDSA Shang. ;)

I came in just in time, and left kinda early but was able to finish the prog. Prog was good, dance and song numbers were fab, and oh my God... the food was good. We had lechon, HAHA. :) It's like gulping oil. Desserts were heavy, so I ate only a little. The band was kinda good too.

So, I came in a $5 Morgan & Co. Maroon dress. My face had cheek tint, lip gloss and a little powder. My hair was a total mess up. HAHA I love Niq, but I'm broke to have my look fixed. HAHA

Love you Nikki. Sorry I wasn't able to stay overnight, although I would love to. Thanks for the wonderful night.

PS.

I already have it, and I'm in love with it. :) O2 XDA II Mini.

lucky luck luck

I just remembered RD, a couple years back, wishing me g'luck on my search for that someone like him - someone who'd treat his girl right. When you think about it, he's kinda alright. He's kinda sweet when it comes to treating his girls, and he gets girls who don't treat him right. Sucks, I know. You treat the other person right, and in return, they treat you like a bitch.

G'luck to me tomorrow - watching Da Vinci Code in Glorietta. I hope they let me in. It's R18, I'm down by 6 months. :(

G'luck to me, I hope that I'd get my Mini soon. I'm overly excited, and it's killing me. I've already got alot of stuffs for it - talk about excitement.

G'luck to Franz, with his AnaPhy long test later at 8am. He's not yet studying, and hopefully at the moment he already is. Hopefully he won't sleep after he studies, he might not wake up on time. As for me, hopefully I could help him by waking him up or keeping him company.

"Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave." ;)

G'luck to Topher, for whatever he is planning to do with his love life & hope that he does the right thing.

G'luck to Kokai, to make good decisions especially at this point in her life. Hope that she'll do the right thing too.

G'luck to Jay, although he thinks he's flunking Math and that he might be taking it for the nth time... let's hope not. (I'm a good blockmate. ;))

Oh. Happy Birthday Niq! :) I loves you. :) See you Friday. :D

Before I forget...

Mr. Anonymous, NEVER, EVER call me a bitch. Because I'm not - never was, and never will be. It sucks that I treated you as a friend after everything that happened. I know I shouldn't, but I still gave you the benefit of the doubt. I guess I was wrong. This is a totally different you. And you know what? Since change is evident right now, think twice before calling me again cos I might not consider you as a friend anymore. I already gave you far too much consideration, and all this isht you've slapped me are more than enough to make me realize that you're not worth it, and you'll never be. But still, as nice as I can get... I hope you have a great life ahead of you, and hope that you wouldn't meet someone like you. And if ever you will, let's just say that karma still works.

Mark R., me and Jay got to talk about you. What happened to you SUCKS BIG TIME. We do hope that your souls at peace, we miss you. :(

RD's tita & daughter/son, what happened to the two you SUCKS BIG TIME too. It's really freaky that something like that is possible. I know RD, he's a good person, he'll take care of his family and cousins. As from what I know, he treats everyone as family. :)

Good people have so little time, but why? I just don't get it. :(

random feelings

1. Bummed - I don't have my Mini yet.

2. Happy - I'm going and YOU aren't.

3. Bored - There's just no one online, yet, to talk to.

4. Bloated - I've been eating a whole lot of food lately, and I can't help it cos there's just nothing to do.

5. Cold - The aircon's window is directed to my feet.

6. Excited - I'm watching a movie tomorrow, Da Vinci Code.

7. Incomplete - I wanna see 2 groups of people and 1 person. Group A, I'll be seeing on Friday at Monique's 18th. Group B, hopefully I'd see when I get my Mini. Person A, next year? I see Person A, only ONCE a year - and I'm wishing all that could change.

8. Broke - I'm saving up all my money to be able to pay for the Mini, and I can't shop as much.

9. Sad - I'm almost 18, and I still can't just hang out anytime.

10. Loner-ish - There's really no one to stay up with, talk to, and fall asleep with. Yes, sometimes I sleep with the phone/cellphone on my ears with someone on the other line. (Kinda started a long time ago, while I was talking to this someone. And eventually we became quiet, he fell asleep and, eventually I did too. Kinda sweet when you think about it. HAHA)

i COULD be a cellphone technician

I starting checking out how much unlocking a Mini would cost, and it can seriously burn your wallet into ashes. It cost about 600-1500PHP. This brought me to the internet, searching for possible ways of unlocking the unit. Luckily I found one possible way, and I guess before checking out GH or any other cellphone shop, I would try doing it on my own. I've seen the replies of ALOT of people already, and it worked so far. It says that I'd be working on my own risk, so I guess I'm taking the risk. So much for being kuripot, right? HAHAHA

My dad caught me. HAHA For being up at 1am.

My notebook was almost attacked by a Trojan. Thank God for Norton Internet Security.

I'm watching Da Vinci Code in Glorietta 4 on Thursday - with 2 of my aunts, my sister and Jacob? Myron? Topher? Iking? HAHA I don't know.

been thinking

Boredom brings up alot of stuffs from the past, what ifs, and what might have been.

Past... I figure that I miss having a guy best friend. And by that I mean, someone who I can call up anytime - wherever he is and whatever he's doing. We'd have hours of conversation and we would either hang up because were sleepy, not because we're bored or something, or we'd fall asleep. Someone I could really hang out with - just chill, watch tv or listen to music. And yes, someone who would force me to eat. Someone who generally has the same interest that I do, but there would still be alot of differences. Bottom line: I need a guy someone.

What if I took my chances on what I really wanted? Would things work out better? I guess, we wouldn't know, RIGHT? Cos I didn't. And now, I'm hoping that I'd come across that chance for the nth time. Once in a while, I need to give someone the benefit of the doubt.

I just got my OTH - Season 2.

watching: OTH - Season 2 (3/8)

EXCITED

I'm getting a XDA II Mini on Wednesday. <3

Right now, even if I'm a bit tired from window shopping, I'm downloading stuffs I could put on my future Mini.

It's so cold, I love the weather.

I'm done with Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2, and One Tree Hill - Season 1. I'm waiting for OTH - Season 2. HAHA Then Season 3. I just can't get enough. HAHAHA Drama, drama, drama. :)

my phone's totally screwed

Last night, I got a random phone call from I don't know who, cos like I said, my phone's totally screwed. I got 2 consecutive missed calls, and I didn't know that my phone was one beep mode - so I did miss the call. I was watching Yours, Mine, Ours when I got the call. So I couldn't call back, and I keep thinking that it could be an international call - but I highly doubt, cos my uncle's the only one who could probably call and he doesn't know my number, so it's not him. So, whoever it is, I'm sorry I wasn't able to pick up. I was focused on watching the movie, my phone was on beep mode, and I couldn't call back cos no number registered. I know that my phone's screwed up, cos my one of my girl best friends called me and her number didn't registered either.

I think I'm getting an XDA II Mini or something. I'm just wondering how on earth will I tell my dad.

I know typhoon's are bad, but I really love the weather. :)

gadgets

A couple of years back, I remember me telling myself that when I do get a digi cam and an mp3 player, I'd downgrade my cellphone to something that's really basic - something that could manage text messages, phone calls, phonebook, alarm clock, and a calendar. And I thought that was all I'd ever need.

Here am I now, going crazy over electronics again. New cams, new phones, portable dvd players... every little gadget that I've notice recently.

My Summer '06 boredom is on a different level now. It sucks ass big time. :(

watching: Laguna Beach Season 2 (8/9)

My nephew was throwing a tantrum when he woke up from his supposedly siesta. So I gave him my Doggy Bag puppy, which I love. And last thing I heard from my father is that he vomitted all over it. :(

communication or music?

Yesterday I've formally tried taking a lesson on the basics of guitar playing. I love guitar playing. HAHA :) My friend taught me a couple of stuffs way back in high school, and I kinda got hook into it. And now, I tried taking up a formal lesson. Kinda nice, but the guitar wasn't - the strings weren't nylon. Imagine the pain on my fingernails. And now... I'm torn between getting a guitar and a new flip phone.

Well, there's really a whole bunch of stuffs thatI have to consider in getting a new phone: 1. the apperance, 2. the camera, 3. connectivity, 4. phonebook, 5. expandable memory, 6. preferably quadband, 7. music, etc. There's a whole bunch of stuffs. I checked out phone from Nokia, Samsung, & Motorola. I haven't tried checking out Voda Phones.

On the other hand, if I'm getting a guitar. Then I'd just go for something that has nylon strings and that looks pretty.

Only reason why I'm getting a new phone - since no one text messages me that much, it would be kinda cool if I'd do a flip and answer a phone call. HOT. :) And I'm not getting 2 phones for myself, I'd most probably trade in my old one for a new one. I can't really manage a prepaid number, I don't really like the hassles of buying prepaid and running out of prepaid. Although in some cases having a prepaid number seems kinda cute, but now, I don't see any reason why I should be getting one.

water weight

I'm putting on ALOT of water on my system. HAHA WATER WEIGHT! I feel SOOO bloated.

Megamall, part 2

So now, it's not THAT big anymore. Or maybe I'm starting to get used to this mall everyday thing again. Pretty cool if you ask me. I love going to the mall, shopping or window shopping. And it's really awesome to see someone I haven't seen for a long time - which by the way, NEVER happened.

Anyways, I'm still striving to lose some weight - 20 lbs would be enough. HAHAHA

I'm really into this buying a new gadget at the moment. Now I've decided it's an XDA mini for me, or a Motorola v3i. I don't want the Motorola Pink/Magenta RAZR anymore, features weren't able to match what I need. So I figured it'll be a waste if I get one, and besides I can change the cover of my soon to be v3i. Now, I'm still saving up for it. That leaves me... DAYDREAMING. HAHAHA Sucks, I know.

OH. I heard this lovely family rumor. My grandmother, dad side, would love to celebrate her nth birthday by travelling abroad. The best part? With everyone. :) That'll be really great, cos 1. I get to travel, and 2. I get to spend time with my other relatives for a longer period. I'm wishing it'll be on the week of my birthday - but then, we might already have school by that time. And I want to spend some quality friends, I'll be 18. It'll be the BOMB. HAHA It's be and adult - sucks, I know. People would expect me to do more, be "responsible". That sucks big time.

So, as a soon to be adult. I'm suppose to be at a little get together on the 12th, Fontana - I'm praying hard already, I'm tied at home. Another debut on the 19th - which I'm excited about, my 1st formal one... Well, I was invited a thousand times, but this will be the 1st one that I'll be going to. HAHA Sucks to be me, I KNOW. I'm thinking of hair done, nails done, face done, and a cute dress. But then, I'm saving up for a new phone. HAHA

Better get my head straight before anything goes down. I need to straighten out a few things, fix my life, check my "responsibilities" and hopefully, when everything is already in mint condition, I'll be able to have time for myself.

I've been watching Laguna Beach rececntly, and the 4th disc can't seem to play on my laptop. I'll try work it out with the DVD player tomorrow - because no one, from what I know, is up at 2am. HAHA It's summer, OH WELL. It's the time of the year where insomia kicks in and treats you like a bitch.

Watching: Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2 (3/9) - Technically, I'm about to start Season 2.

MEGAmall

Really, it's a HUGE place. Well, it's the biggest mall I've been to, so far, I think. Me and my sister stayed at the department store until my nephew woke up from his siesta. Really huge, alot of great buys - I think. i kinda miss shopping. HAHA All this bum-ness is making me FAT. Really I feel that I get so tired easily, so I feel heavy and all that fat-ness.

So, I got this shirt from the department store, it has Charlie Chaplin's facec printed on it. It's size 12 or 14, something like that. It's kinda cute, and light colored. And I got this shirt from Seventeen, coffeehouse inspired. I got it on brown, so there's that coffee effect.

I'm kinda into brown these days.

The other day I got myself a brown jacket. HAHA

Oh well, I've been seeing alot of good shirts lately. I guess before school starts, my closet will be full of those silly shirts. HAHAHA

*cross my fingers* I hope tomorrow, we go shopping again. :)

A girl's a girl. Some hate the mall, but I love it. :) It's therapheutic. :D

TV mode, Laguna Beach - Season 1 & 2 (2/9)

sucks that I had to leave early

Just when the party was lively, my dad had to call me to tell me I had to go home. Really sucks. I love mango float and fresh orange juice. HAHAHA And some other stuffs too. ;) Now I kinda wish that I could've stayed longer. GREAT PARTY :D I bumped into a couple of friends: Kat Canon, Karen, Micah, Pao, Kerv, Gen, Toni, Sasa, Marla, Trix.... And made new ones, Trish, Cat/Kat, Vina? Plus there was this hot dance number by her friends. ;) That's about it.

I miss someone. GREAT, just what I need after a fab party. HAHA Well, I kinda wish he was there. :) We should come up with a promise that when we reach 30 and single, we'll have to get married. HAHA Fun idea, I know.

Honore De Balzac

Sometimes you surf the internet with nothing in mind. Then you stumble onto something that's worth reading. Fact is: I'm bored and I need something worthwhile.

Love has its own instinct, finding the way to the heart, as the feeblest insect finds the way to its flower, with a will which nothing can dismay nor turn aside.

Love is like some fresh spring, first a stream and then a river, changing its aspect and its nature as it flows to plunge itself in some boundless ocean, where restricted natures only find monotony, but where great souls are engulfed in endless contemplation.

Love or hatred must constantly increase between two persons who are always together; every moment fresh reasons are found for loving or hating better.

The fact is that love is of two kinds—one which commands, and one which obeys. The two are quite distinct, and the passion to which the one gives rise is not the passion of the other.

Lovers have a way of using this word "nothing" which implies exactly the opposite.

If you are to judge a man, you must know his secret thoughts, sorrows, and feelings; to know merely the outward events of a man's life would only serve to make a chronological table—a fool's notion of history.

& tomorrow, I'd be posting something about loneliness. Another one of those that I'd stumble onto. Summer is a bore, and it's killing me gently. But come to think of it, it's better than going to school. And now, I wanna work. Pft. Nothing's easy, right?

18 Sonnets

I'm going to Dye's debut later at Embassy. God knows what I'll wear. Probably something that I can cover with a jacket/coat/whatever. I'm tasked to do a sonnet/poem for her, and I'm kinda pretty slow doing those kind of things. O well, it's her 18th, might as well come up with something nice, right?

Opt 1

Friendship is the kind of love that never can grow old.
Warm and cozy it will stay when other things are cold.
Friendship is a love so true it won't be denied,
because a friend will always be there close by your side.
Boyfriends and lovers come and go in this game of life we play,
But a true friend, no matter what, in your heart will always stay.
So hold these friends dear to you, and never let them go.
Think how much they mean to you, and make sure to tell them so.

Opt 2

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who knows where she's going, and will keep on until she gets there;
who knows not only what she wants from life, but what she has to offer in return.

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who is loyal to family and friends, who expects no more from others than she is willing to give;

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who guides and inspires not by quoting others philosophies, but by living her own good example;
who accepts both victories and disappointments with the same grace, and who can rise above life's challenges and move on.

HERE'S TO THE WOMAN

who gives the gifts of her thoughtfulness,
who shows her caring with a word of support, her understanding with a smile;
a woman who brings joy to others just by being herself.

I'm kinda hoping I bump into someone really really close, so I'd be comfortable. If not, it's Embassy, the bar's open - I guess. HAHAHA

Chemistry

It's a picture of me and my sister taken way way back. It's originally taken in black and white, and it works out just fine - with all that drama effecr. HAHAHA Anyways, I edited it, as usual, using photoshop. And this is how it ended. :)

What keeps YOU up at 4AM?

A good conversation with a good friend. HAHAHA This is one of the reasons why guys are the best people to talk to. :)

I have good friends, a lot of them, and I have a lot of catching up to do.

I'm not so sure with what I want, still.

"I would have given you all of my heart... But there's someone who's torn it apart... And he's taken just all that I have... But if you want I'll try to love again... Baby, I'll try to love again" - Sheryl Crow, The First Cut Is The Deepest

OTH - Season 1 (6/8)

It's been what? 4 days since I got the DVD and I'm down to 2 cds. Talk about boredom. HAHAHA Oh well... I love it, and I just can't get enough.

OTH - Season 1 (1/8)

Ep 1

Nathan is SUCH A BITCH. HAHAHA
I need a good guy who I'd be glad I'm friends with..
Down by one and I love that block.

Ep 2

"Relax... Destiny has a way of finding you."
"If I say I hate it, either I'm a liar or a fraud. Either way, I lose."
Why is it OK, when sometimes it's just not?
"I just want things to go back the way they were... with everything"
I want someone who'd ask me how my sleep was.
"It's hard to fight things that were afraid of, sometimes we just need a little help"

Ep 3

HOTness HAHAHA
"I want someone for once. Reliable, steady..."
"Sometimes it's good, sometimes... there's no one else"
"If everythings perfect, we wouldn't be human."

-

It's so good I can't help watching. But.. a kid SHOULD rest too, because she also got some responsibilities to attend to. & finally, the other computer's working. THANK GOD, all the gasoline wasted wasn't worth a tad bit - I have my reasons.

Like what I said... Success is the SWEETEST revenge.

I'm so DIZZY & I wanna VOMIT

I got the DVDs that I want. <3 One Tree Hill - Season 1 and Laguna Beach - Season 1 and 2. I love both these shows. :D Amazing... (:

a kiddie picture

I'm super bored right now that I just want to sleep. I'm super sleepy but I don't wanna sleep. This feeling... It's just so weird.

This is image on the left side... I made this during one of those hot week day afternoon, when there's nothing to do and there's no one to talk to. I was thinking like how would I illustrate something if I was a kid again. At that very moment I started thinking like a 4 year old again. Oh well... Time flies fast.

MY house

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. son. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

PEACHY

Fine, like what Jed told me... it's peach. It's suppose to be orange. Anyways, this is just a simple wallpaper I made - out of boredom, of course. I used some brushes here and there, and VOILA (: Finish product. This is a 640x480 wallpaper with flowers, vines, and a butterfly. My name is of course printed on top right, and the date I made this.

Afterwards, I had my dinner at 5 in the afternoon. HAHA I'm considering it my dinner because I ate alot, and I already ate lunch. My dad brought home Sipa and Kikiam from a resto in Malate. The food came with great sauces, that's why I was able to eat alot. And I did eat alot, more like my usual meal before.

Oh well.. Got to go, I'm off to Glorietta to do my weekend window shopping. Although this time, I hope I get something for me. (:

butterfly swirls

This is pretty neat. This is about 640x480. I used one shade, as usual... HAHAHA Kinda gold-ish. I used some swirls, grunges and that butterfly. Name and date is printed on the bottom left, so I can keep track of what I've been doing so far.

sucker for jap

Sometimes I'm a total sucker for Japanese food. My dad loves me. :D He brought us home food from Teriyaki Boy. I don't know if he has an idea that I have this craving for Teriyaki Boy almost everyday - since I stopped going to GH. HAHA But damn, I LOVE TERIYAKI BOY. He brought us home 2 orders of Teriyaki Chicken. It's not Katsu, but I love anything from that resto. (:

It sucks though... They came home 1130p, and we already ate dinner. I try to eat a meal only once, what I mean is that I'll only eat breakfast, lunch and dinner once. I used to eat everything twice. HAHA I'm a pig, I know that.

I keep my share of the chicken in a safe place. So I'm kinda expecting that I'd still be able to eat everything tomorrow. (:

I can't wait for tomorrow's lunch. HAHA Teriyaki Boy BABY! :D

And you know what? One of my most wonderful dinner was at Teriyaki Boy. <3

2nd chance

"This time I'm not gonna let you slip away... This time I'm not gonna let another day go by without holding you so tight, without treating you so right." - This Time, Freestyle.

Maybe when some people get their 2nd chance they'd say yes. HAHAHA What if some people are just taking their time... Wasting their time... HAHAHA Some people wait to know that the feeling's right. Some people are scared because of past experiences. Or maybe they were the right people at the wrong time, and now I wonder: When's the right time? Maybe now or somewhere in the future, they just haven't noticed yet.

Some things are left unnoticed, some words are left unspoken and some feelings are left unexpressed. That's the way love goes...

Random feeling: I miss visiting the store in NEGH. HAHAHA

incomplete

I miss my old school friends.

I miss talking all day, all night on the phone.

I miss chillin'.

I miss taking pictures.

I thought summer wouldn't be this boring. I think I ran out of things to do. I know there's so much things that I could do, but there's always that something that'll hold you back, me back.

I just don't know where to begin, or how to start all over again - on what they call THE RIGHT WAY. How would you know if something's right if in your opinion it's not, while on other's it is.

What's missing? The cherry on top of my sundae.

I miss having my usual frappuccino. I miss having my warm chocolate milk. I miss having the new people around me and the usual people I know around me, and sometimes when they're mixed together.

I love hanging out, and just talking about nothing serious. I miss laughing my heart out.

"I want to move on, not realizing i was moving too slow. Tried to hang on, but there was nothing left for me to hold." - Two Trick Pony, Sandwich.

goin' CRAZY

"When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you... I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you... and how nothing else matters." - Nathan

Now I've just come to realize that having all the material things I want isn't enough to keep me happy. I have a phone that can store almost everything that I need, a desknote that I've set-up to suit my taste, an iPod to keep me going, a camera that I bring everywhere to store so many memories, and the speakers that I wanted. I don't really so much material things, in fact this is just a little craze to me.

This is such a crazy day - there's just something wrong with it and I couldn't figure what it is. I've been thinking but my mind seems to be so blank. Alot of thoughts are rushing in and out of my brain, that I don't know which one to focus on. It's really a complicated thing.

One thing i'm sure about... I need some form of distraction, just to keep me off this silent phase. I need someone to talk to - random thoughts, or some form of activity that I could get myself busy with. Silence bothers me so much, and the word sleep hasn't been entering my vocabulary lately.

I can't wait for my OTH DVD. When you think about it, there are alot of lessons that you could get from OTH - & that's why I love it so much.

Somehow, I wish that I could turn back time and would've said yes to everything that I wanted. But then again, sometimes, wanting more could mean losing everything. Regrets? I'm not so sure.

sea shells

This is one of those stuffs I made during the Lenten Season. The resolution's 640x480. I had nothing to do that week, everyone was out having their own vacation. HAHA Me? I have all summer long.

I GOT MY SPEAKERS. Cheaper than usual, about half the price. :)

endless summer

I MADE THIS. I was just tripping with photoshop during the lenten season, and this is one of those walpaper types that I came up with. The resolution's 1024x768, I think. I basically did this on grayscale - there are times when I'm really poor in color combination, I don't know why. I used the brushes I have. And this is what I came up with. Pretty neat, huh?

Since I have all summer to myself - thank God I passed my subjects - I see myself spending more time with my desknote and over the net looking for tutorials, brushes and inspirations ;) I guess summer isn't a bore after all. And they all wonder why bedtime during summer is 3AM.

At the moment, I'm in love with bossa nova, photoshop and myself. HAHA Seriously, what's not to love? ;p